I feel like I’m going to die.
I’m adding a spoiler warning, as there is a trigger for self harm. These are real problems and triggers are real.
>!The title says it all. I’m not suicidal, but I’ve been struggling with stress and self harming for maybe two years due to personal issues. Health anxiety never crossed my mind. For the past few weeks since I got diagnosed with Henoch Schlönlein Purpura, I’ve been worried that I’m going to die. Doc said I had high hemoglobin, which isn’t something to be worried about in itself, but I’ve just been anxious that every time I go to sleep, I’ll never wake up. I went to a theme park today, and I’m absolutely fine with them. However, I was so anxious I was going to have a stroke, or pass out and not come back. Every neck pain I worry might be meningitis, every muscle spasm I think might be a seizure, every headache I worry might be a stroke. I‘m fine, but I hate this. I want to know what’s doing this, and if I can suppress it. Is therapy worth it?!<