u/Equivalent_League_27

Do they love me?

Hello I’m 19 mtf dating 22 male/non binary we have been together for nearly 2 months which obviously isn’t very long but that’s why I’m not sure how to handle this situation. At the start he was very kind and loving we saw each other about once a week. He is quite busy, as he now has a new job 12 hour days 3-4 days a week, plus school and a theatre company (doesn’t make much money from) but now after only a while I feel like the butterflies are gone he usually only calls when he’s walking to work or home aka never when he has anything else to do and he never tells me he loves me unless I say it first sometimes he doesn’t even respond. I currently work part time and have more free time until I start school so try to accommodate his schedule, for example he missed my birthday for a health reason and is off this Saturday and offered to take me to dinner so I spoke with my manger to get the day off, now he says he may need to go to school all day I asked about Tuesday and he told me he had to do assignments. It’s been three weeks since I last saw him and I miss him a lot I understand he is busy and has health problems but it hurts that I just don’t seem to be a priority. I do have anxiety and this is my first relationship so maybe I’m over thinking it? We are both autistic aswell so it’s really hard to communicate he has had some and past relationships which also makes it hard to move around. I just see my siblings and friends with their partners and I guess it just hurts because I miss him and what his affection. He never responds to my texts or questions at what point do I cut my loss dating while trans is already so hard and every time he’s nice or makes me giggle I just can’t imagine another person.

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u/Equivalent_League_27 — 12 days ago

Hello I’m 18 and have recently been seeing more and more about essa content and I’m interested in potentially getting my own I have ocd that is medicated but I always found myself surrounded by teddys for comfort. I just, like, is it something u just pick up? Do u look for a specific friend? How do people react outside (understand not caring for others opinions but I get anxious sometimes)? How does family react? Why did you decide to start? To be honest any advice or personal stories are welcome.

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u/Equivalent_League_27 — 22 days ago

Im not sure this is the right place but someone sent me a link to join here on a post so hopefully I’m at the right place. I’m thinking about starting private healthcare to receive hormone therapy and I’m think about using gendergp. I’ve been told there is better out there but at over 100 a month I just can’t afford it but I’ve heard gendergp has fallen off recently because it’s using ai. Anyone who uses this service have any opinions or anyone could recommend another service I live in Northern Ireland so not all uk places will be accessible same with Irish. Any advice is welcome 🙏
I’m looking into imago aswell. Also as someone who doesn’t like needles but has a very different schedule daily should I suck it up and go on injection and will I get used to it?

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u/Equivalent_League_27 — 22 days ago

I’m thinking about starting private healthcare to receive hormone therapy and I’m think about using gendergp. I’ve been told there is better out there but at over 100 a month I just can’t afford it but I’ve heard gendergp has fallen off recently because it’s using ai. Anyone who uses this service have any opinions or anyone could recommend another service I live in Northern Ireland so not all uk places will be accessible same with Irish. Any advice is welcome 🙏
I’m looking into imago aswell. Also as someone who doesn’t like needles but has a very different schedule daily should I suck it up and go on injection and will I get used to it?

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u/Equivalent_League_27 — 23 days ago

So I’ve been out for a while now and most people took it well but I’ve had to slowly come to the reality that I’m going to lose people specially my dad we had a rough patch that we made up but after coming out I know he doesn’t accept me and likely never will. he has gay friends my sister is bisexual and would’ve known better than to talk crap to me but it hurts I’m heavily reliant on him as I’m still young so I have to endure being called the wrong name as my sister and mum are to scared to use the correct one around him and knowing that when I’m able to stand on my own two feet I have to make the choice to be happy and move on or stay. Even worse I’m aware my mother is going to have to choose a relationship with me without him or I’ll lose her too. I’m alright having a relationship with her separate from him but it’ll make her choose to attend weddings and major events without him. I see how he gets along with my brother and its stings more than I realised before I’m mourning a dad that’s still living and treating me as his daughter. How do you deal with the mourning of a parent who still is around and supports you in everything else? I’m trying to go private on testosterone and I’m not sure how he’ll react but I just can’t make myself wait any longer for someone I know isn’t going to come around. I’m aware of how he feels as he tells my sister he’ll never accept me or call em my name and when she defended me not long after I came out he shouted and left the house for a while so although he may be quite around me I’m well aware of his opinions.

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u/Equivalent_League_27 — 25 days ago