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So the thing is ki its pretty obvious that I m probably not getting an MBBS seat this time either...And now I basically have two options...

Pehla ki ek saal aur drop le lu..And doosra ki jo bhi college mil raha hai whatever it is I just take it and move on..

The problem is I really wanted to become a forensic doctor..Like out of everything this is probably the only thing I was 100% sure about... I genuinely feel ki isme I can be the best..I literally crave crime scenes dead bodies proper Dr. Salunkhe types stuff 😭... this is actually what I want..And unfortunatel I don’t think I’m going to get it becoz I have borderline marks..

And ab ek saal aur dena bhi itna scary lag raha hai.. Mera pura rhythm toot chuka hai... And the worst part is I m not confident ki next time mai kr lungi..What if next year isse bhi gandi rank aa gayi? What if phir paper leak ho gaya? What if I give another whole year of my life and still end up exactly where I am right now?

I’m just tired...like genuinely tired..Mere andar honestly ek aur saal dene ki himmat hai bhi ya nahi i don’t know.

I know ki agar main BDS ki seat le leti hoon ( which I can get in top dental colleges) toh somehow I will make it work..I confident about that. l will adjust, I can do well... But that sudden hit that I’m doing something other than what I actually wanted…that hurts in a way I can’t really explain..

And then I see all those ragging cases on Reddit and the kind of mentality some seniors have and I’m like…how the hell am I supposed to survive MBBS? Also I have a autoimmune disorder which get triggered by stress..so I also can't take too much stress..which is the main thing about mbbs😭 If I take another chance what if things get even worse? What if I finally get the seat and then realise I’m not strong enough for everything that comes with it???

I genuinely don’t know what to do..

I have to choose.. I know I have to... But I don’t WANT to choose..I just want someone to come and make the decision for me. Bas...Because right now I’m so confused and so exhausted that I don’t trust myself to make the right choice...

Please help ..please 🙏

Also third drop tha ye mera..

Meri jo rank hai wo ekdm border line pe hai..mtlb mujhe end me ..ekdm end me jaake mbbs mil bhi skta hai aur nhi bhi..pr mujhe state quota se kgmu bds mil jaayega..to kya mujhe bds consider kr skti hu???

Mtlb mujhe mbbs me sbse bekaar college milega..and kgmu to kgmu hai..mujhe bds me kaafi acha exposure mil skta hai..pr milega bds hi

jo jo mbbs kr rhe ho ..ye krne wale ho..ye kroge ..tumhe kya lgta hai??? Mbbs hi milna chahiye..I mean mujhe nhi mil rha mbbs ..mai kya bds ka try nhi kr skti?

Please ye mt bolna ki bina interest ke bds mt lo..maine kbhi socha nhi tha bds ka..isliye may be dar rhi..pr mai kr lungi shayad

Also mera ye third drop tha to mai ek saal aur nhi kr paaungi..

To tum sb kya suggest kroge??? Please please help..kyunki roj din me mbbs mbbs sochti hu ..aur raat me bds bds..sochte sochte ye mauka bhi chla jaayega...

Bhai Saab yr kitne hoshiyar log rehte hain duniya me..mai hi chutiya reh gyi kya..

Short me btati hu...Mai apne group me aur apne khaandan me abhi sbse sahi hu pdhne me ..humesha thi..isliye sb bhaav dete the..bhaiii paper se pehle jo msgs aate the mujhe sbke ..random dosto ke ..meri best friend mree ja rhi thi mujhse baat kiye bina..sbko talab machi thi baat krne ki..sbko meri bdi chinta hoti thi..mere bf wo to mr jata tha agr aadhe ghante me reply na krun aur bhaii ab to 24 ghante ho gye msg hi nhi aaya ..dost rishtedaar sb bhaai sb bhaai...aur mai maha chutiya insaan main sochti thi kb mere baare me Kitna sochte hain mai hi sbko bhaav nhi de rhi ..mera exam h mai hi busy hu exam hote hi mai chill krungi sbse baat krungi sbke saath ghumne jaaungi...bhaaaaaiiii to ignore kiya hai sbne mujhe jo ignore kiya hai..mai smjh hi nhi pa rhi ki maine sach me koi dost nhi bnaye kya..sb saale khali tips lene aate the...apne garz pe ..bhaiii aise aise bahane maar rhe aise aise bahane..Maa kasam maut aa rhi hai bahut jada..tum sb kya kya hai abhi aadha msg pdhoge adha nhi aur uske baad kuch bhi likh ke gayab ..bhaii mai kya krun.. don't say kuch naya kr bhaii nhi aata mujhe kuch pdhne ke alawa mai gadhi hu bahut bdi wali ..din bhr reddit scroll krti hu tum sbki khushi me khush rehti hu..chutiyo ki tarah din raat soch soch ke roti hu ..raat ne cutoff ke gande gande sapne dekh ke soti hu..

Isliye suno jo iss saal taiyaari krne ja rhe ho bhaiiii...bhaaiii ek percent bhav mt dena kisi ko ..Maa chudaye sb ..sb Matlabi hain bhaiii ..Meri tarah chutiya mt bn jana ...mt bnna

Bhai Saab yr kitne hoshiyar log rehte hain duniya me..mai hi chutiya reh gyi kya..

Short me btati hu...Mai apne group me aur apne khaandan me abhi sbse sahi hu pdhne me ..humesha thi..isliye sb bhaav dete the..bhaiii paper se pehle jo msgs aate the mujhe sbke ..random dosto ke ..meri best friend mree ja rhi thi mujhse baat kiye bina..sbko talab machi thi baat krne ki..sbko meri bdi chinta hoti thi..mere bf wo to mr jata tha agr aadhe ghante me reply na krun aur bhaii ab to 24 ghante ho gye msg hi nhi aaya ..dost rishtedaar sb bhaai sb bhaai...aur mai maha chutiya insaan main sochti thi kb mere baare me Kitna sochte hain mai hi sbko bhaav nhi de rhi ..mera exam h mai hi busy hu exam hote hi mai chill krungi sbse baat krungi sbke saath ghumne jaaungi...bhaaaaaiiii to ignore kiya hai sbne mujhe jo ignore kiya hai..mai smjh hi nhi pa rhi ki maine sach me koi dost nhi bnaye kya..sb saale khali tips lene aate the...apne garz pe ..bhaiii aise aise bahane maar rhe aise aise bahane..Maa kasam maut aa rhi hai bahut jada..tum sb kya kya hai abhi aadha msg pdhoge adha nhi aur uske baad kuch bhi likh ke gayab ..bhaii mai kya krun.. don't say kuch naya kr bhaii nhi aata mujhe kuch pdhne ke alawa mai gadhi hu bahut bdi wali ..din bhr reddit scroll krti hu tum sbki khushi me khush rehti hu..chutiyo ki tarah din raat soch soch ke roti hu ..raat ne cutoff ke gande gande sapne dekh ke soti hu..

Isliye suno jo iss saal taiyaari krne ja rhe ho bhaiiii...bhaaiii ek percent bhav mt dena kisi ko ..Maa chudaye sb ..sb Matlabi hain bhaiii ..Meri tarah chutiya mt bn jana ...mt bnna

Yrr kya kr rhe tum sb..mai akele hi bore ho rhi hu kya ..please please kuch tips de do mai kya krun ..hobby wobby mt bolna unn sb ke liye mai bahot chutiya hu ..please madad

3rd time dropper hu isliye acchi advice dungi..

2027 walo let me help you

(Bore ho rhi hu)

Love you jindagi

Feels like my time has come too

I've been in a long-distance relationship for 5 years, like we know each other from LKG, but when we started dating (in 10th grade), we never got a chance to meet

I haven't seen him in real life for 7 years, we just chat and sometimes call

He used to live in Kota and this one person changed everything for me..he's such a weird person..sometimes he'll be super affectionate and then ignore me, sometimes he'll talk maturely and sometimes act like he doesn't know what to do or how to handle things..whenever I tell him that I'm having trouble and can't live like this, he just says sorry and wraps up the conversation with promises to fix things, but it just goes back to the same

And when he's with his family, he doesn't give a damn that I exist, whenever he goes to his village, he ignores me for days on end, and as soon as he gets back to the hostel, then suddenly he starts showing love..as far as I can tell, he's not cheating on me, but this weird personality really bothers me..I've gone from being a topper to average..I got a serious autoimmune disorder during this dating period even though he sometimes takes care of the meds

We haven't had a proper conversation for a month, and today when I started talking about it, he read my message and disappeared, and then 20 minutes later when I called him, he said he was hungry...like what, hungry? Here I am upset and it doesn't even matter to him

If any of you have had this happen to you, please tell me what to do because I can't just end things, nor can I continue like this

(Sorry for typing this shit)