u/EstablishmentFit4945

I’m sick to my stomach I’m lightheaded while doing uber deliveries. I woke up today only needed 250 to make rent today is last day. I usually make that on uber but it’s slow today my dumbass opened the app lost 50, 150, 280 and finally 220 I lost $700 in 2 hours. Now I’m down to 300 still need 1250 only have $100 on uber so far. Why am I so stupid bro. I swear I don’t want to live anymore last week I lost 1200 took a loan for $750 too which I owe soon. Like bro I can’t believe how dumb I am. Damm man. I literally don’t know what to do. I can ask my mom and cousin for help but $750 is crazy because ik I can make another 100 on uber I’ll have $500 Damm bro. I literally don’t know what to say. I’m a disappointment and don’t deserve to be here

I’m sick to my stomach I’m lightheaded while doing uber deliveries. I woke up today only needed 250 to make rent today is last day. I usually make that on uber but it’s slow today my dumbass opened the app lost 50, 150, 280 and finally 220 I lost $700 in 2 hours. Now I’m down to 300 still need 1250 only have $100 on uber so far. Why am I so stupid bro. I swear I don’t want to live anymore last week I lost 1200 took a loan for $750 too which I owe soon. Like bro I can’t believe how dumb I am. Damm man. I literally don’t know what to do. I can ask my mom and cousin for help but $750 is crazy because ik I can make another 100 on uber I’ll have $500 Damm bro. I literally don’t know what to say. I’m a disappointment and don’t deserve to be here

Smh I’m disappointed in myself. Can’t even describe this feeling. I’ve been working so hard to catch up due to this addiction. Self excluded but I thought I made it permanent it was only for 30 days. The same day I got the account back I lost $600 and today I lost another 400.
That was all I had to my name. Not to mention I owe my cousin 400. I was trying to double it instead of just paying it back. I fell weak to the all the soccer wins I been seeing smh. I have rent due soon other things to handle and I just set my self back so far. I’m currently doing uber deliveries and I hate how what ever money I make it’s already spent while destroying my car. Damm man my pops was right I am failure. Already down over 150k but it’s never the amounts it the circumstances this was all I had to eat and get by. Damm

Smh I’m disappointed in myself. Can’t even describe this feeling. I’ve been working so hard to catch up due to this addiction. Self excluded but I thought I made it permanent it was only for 30 days. The same day I got the account back I lost $600 and today I lost another 400.
That was all I had to my name. Not to mention I owe my cousin 400. I was trying to double it instead of just paying it back. I fell weak to the all the soccer wins I been seeing smh. I have rent due soon other things to handle and I just set my self back so far. I’m currently doing uber deliveries and I hate how what ever money I make it’s already spent while destroying my car. Damm man my pops was right I am failure. Already down over 150k but it’s never the amounts it the circumstances this was all I had to eat and get by. Damm

Uber eats made sure today I didn’t hit my quest. I’ve been active for 7 hours and only gotten 5 request when I usually would’ve gotten like 20-25. I need to do 15 orders in next 4 and half hours and only made like $35 today. Man fuck these niggas

Bro why tf is uber constantly tryna drop my acceptance rate and my tier. They know these orders are ass ain’t no one driving 12 miles for $5. There’s no way there’s not orders near where we are this shit is annoying. Just trying to make extra money and this app is hoeing us. I refuse to believe uber don’t know what they doing it’s pathetic at this point. I went from a 55 percent to a 30 percent in 1 week with these shitty ass orders

I work full time 10 Hours a day I’m trying to do uber eats from 11 am to 3:30 pm cause I have work from 5pm to 3 am
But I can’t get any orders. The ones I’m getting are so bad I have to decline them and it’s dropping my acceptance rate. In the past 3 days I went from 60 percent acceptance to 40 percent I hate that I need to relay on uber eats to make
Some money they treat you like shit

Woke up and double fucked everything. I was already down 500 literally a few hours ago. I took a 100 loan from my cousin now I owe him 200 immediately lost that. Took 200 from my mom after just paying her back 500 lost that instantly. Took a 100 from my other friend lost that instantly. That’s 400 in less than an hour $900 for the day. I didn’t get food gas laundry nothing. I’m fucked. My next check is pay debt and bills other ones after that save for rent fuck man. I have not 1 dollar to my name. This addiction is killing me I swear I rather be dead I’m
Fucking tired and stupid bro I swear. Why tf did I just do that. Deposit after deposit didn’t win 1 fucking game

Woke up and double fucked everything. I was already down 500 literally a few hours ago. I took a 100 loan from my cousin now I owe him 200 immediately lost that. Took 200 from my mom after just paying her back 500 lost that instantly. Took a 100 from my other friend lost that instantly. That’s 400 in less than an hour $900 for the day. I didn’t get food gas laundry nothing. I’m fucked. My next check is pay debt and bills other ones after that save for rent fuck man. I have not 1 dollar to my name. This addiction is killing me I swear I rather be dead I’m
Fucking tired and stupid bro I swear. Why tf did I just do that. Deposit after deposit didn’t win 1 fucking game

Asked myself why a 100 times every Damm time. I fucked up again. Yea I just lost my paycheck again brutal feeling. I keep doing this weekly no money for food gas and have to wait a whole 7 days. And I owe. Can’t believe I did it again. I don’t even know how I’ll survive another 7 days I went through hell this week scraping to get gas to get to work just to be back in the same position. Damm bro I might be actually better of not here anymore. I never even thought like this but the way I screwed up my life I hate that it’s even a thought. Just turned 25 I’ve been living alone for like 9 months now and my gambling is completely out of my control. I hit rock bottom multiple times when I stayed with my parents but it’s like speed running rock bottom every time I get money now. I had a plan to hand the money to my mom and I don’t even know how I talked myself into placing a bet.

Asked myself why a 100 times every Damm time. I fucked up again. Yea I just lost my paycheck again brutal feeling. I keep doing this weekly no money for food gas and have to wait a whole 7 days. And I owe. Can’t believe I did it again. I don’t even know how I’ll survive another 7 days I went through hell this week scraping to get gas to get to work just to be back in the same position. Damm bro I might be actually better of not here anymore. I never even thought like this but the way I screwed up my life I hate that it’s even a thought. Just turned 25 I’ve been living alone for like 9 months now and my gambling is completely out of my control. I hit rock bottom multiple times when I stayed with my parents but it’s like speed running rock bottom every time I get money now. I had a plan to hand the money to my mom and I don’t even know how I talked myself into placing a bet.

Wrd to my mother I just had an epiphany I don’t know if I spelt it right but a nigga ain’t stupid 😂. I’ll never gamble again If I won I lost it back if I lose I chase what’s the fucking point. I’m actually 25 years old I honestly can’t believe it the shit I been through just to keep wasting all my opportunities gambling. Wrd to everything I love if I never gambled I’d be well of right now 100k plus in savings doing what I want to do.

Instead I’m working 10 hours days living alone just trying to survive. My Birthday was literally 2 days ago and I’ve never had this mindset in my life. “What the fuck are you doing bro” is the question I ask my self everyday even on day 4 just as a reminder to never do what I did again.

I literally sold the bag. If I never gambled my life would be so different right now it’s actually crazy thinking about it. I really have to give all glory to god I’m Still alive and have a roof over my head. I’m grateful. this is it I am completely done sport betting it was never a way to make it ever.
I see my self back so many years. But one day at a time. We can’t change who we are on this very day but we can change the future

Stay strong everyone remember you never lose if you don’t. Place the first bet.

I just want to say I forgive myself for all my past mistakes
Let’s be better everyday moving forward

Wrd to my mother I just had an epiphany I don’t know if I spelt it right but a nigga ain’t stupid 😂. I’ll never gamble again If I won I lost it back if I lose I chase what’s the fucking point. I’m actually 25 years old I honestly can’t believe it the shit I been through just to keep wasting all my opportunities gambling. Wrd to everything I love if I never gambled I’d be well of right now 100k plus in savings doing what I want to do.

Instead I’m working 10 hours days living alone just trying to survive. My Birthday was literally 2 days ago and I’ve never had this mindset in my life. “What the fuck are you doing bro” is the question I ask my self everyday even on day 4 just as a reminder to never do what I did again.

I literally sold the bag. If I never gambled my life would be so different right now it’s actually crazy thinking about it. I really have to give all glory to god I’m Still alive and have a roof over my head. I’m grateful. this is it I am completely done sport betting it was never a way to make it ever.
I see my self back so many years. But one day at a time. We can’t change who we are on this very day but we can change the future

Stay strong everyone remember you never lose if you don’t. Place the first bet.

I just want to say I forgive myself for all my past mistakes
Let’s be better everyday moving forward

Happy birthday to me. Just turned 25 and I realized how far back I set myself by gambling. Wow man really 4 years of just fucking up my life. Every time I think I hit rock bottom there was a newer low. And the older you get the more you’re on your own. At work currently doing a 10 hour shift on my birthday when I should’ve been out the country enjoying but oh well these are the consequences of my actions.

Thank you god for letting me see another year and I’m praying I never fall back into the trap of gambling I have a long journey ahead of me. Completely broke at the moment when I get paid Thursday it’s all going to debts I owe caused from last weekend relapse I’ll be broke for another 2 weeks then my next checks are going straight to bills. This is a sad life but I built it brick by brick by stupidly gambling. This shit shouldn’t even be legal. They handing us a rope to hang ourselves with.

I just pray I can turn my life around these next couple months.

Happy birthday to me. Just turned 25 and I realized how far back I set myself by gambling. Wow man really 4 years of just fucking up my life. Every time I think I hit rock bottom there was a newer low. And the older you get the more you’re on your own. At work currently doing a 10 hour shift on my birthday when I should’ve been out the country enjoying but oh well these are the consequences of my actions.

Thank you god for letting me see another year and I’m praying I never fall back into the trap of gambling I have a long journey ahead of me. Completely broke at the moment when I get paid Thursday it’s all going to debts I owe caused from last weekend relapse I’ll be broke for another 2 weeks then my next checks are going straight to bills. This is a sad life but I built it brick by brick by stupidly gambling. This shit shouldn’t even be legal. They handing us a rope to hang ourselves with.

I just pray I can turn my life around these next couple months.

First thing first happy 25th birthday to me. Just grateful to see 25 I’ve been through a lot lost a lot of friends at a younger age lost a lot of things but we still here. All the dreams I set for myself to achieve by this age I’ve probably done 1 thing which is have my own apartment. So thank you god for that. I woke up today with $0 dollars still don’t know how I’ll make it to work in the next 3 hours for a 10 hour shift I have no gas. Didn’t receive not 1 gift from anyone. As you get older the more you’re on your own I learned that hard way. About 8 people told me happy birthday with 4-5 being close family. So grateful for that also.

This addiction is terrible. You’ll lose everything if not now then later. It’s guaranteed you lose idc what anyone says.
Now that I know that and fully accept. I’ve lost over a 100k sport betting and today I can say I’m fine with that there’s no recovering. I accept defeat. Now to finally start my life.

Everything I did to keep gambling was immature the chasing losses keep depositing all of it. Wasting all my checks sitting there hopeless after I chased like a maniac. Never again. I’ve self excluded completely won’t use friends accounts. I’ve finally joined my first GA meeting yesterday. I’ll be handing my next check all to my mom I rather be broke than give my self the opportunity to fuck myself again pause.

With that being said thanks to everyone who comments good advice and everyone who’s on this journey to leave this devil Alone. I hope everyone have a good day

Thank you god for this gift of life I won’t waste another day not being my best self. Ameen

First thing first happy 25th birthday to me. Just grateful to see 25 I’ve been through a lot lost a lot of friends at a younger age lost a lot of things but we still here. All the dreams I set for myself to achieve by this age I’ve probably done 1 thing which is have my own apartment. So thank you god for that. I woke up today with $0 dollars still don’t know how I’ll make it to work in the next 3 hours for a 10 hour shift I have no gas. Didn’t receive not 1 gift from anyone. As you get older the more you’re on your own I learned that hard way. About 8 people told me happy birthday with 4-5 being close family. So grateful for that also.

This addiction is terrible. You’ll lose everything if not now then later. It’s guaranteed you lose idc what anyone says.
Now that I know that and fully accept. I’ve lost over a 100k sport betting and today I can say I’m fine with that there’s no recovering. I accept defeat. Now to finally start my life.

Everything I did to keep gambling was immature the chasing losses keep depositing all of it. Wasting all my checks sitting there hopeless after I chased like a maniac. Never again. I’ve self excluded completely won’t use friends accounts. I’ve finally joined my first GA meeting yesterday. I’ll be handing my next check all to my mom I rather be broke than give my self the opportunity to fuck myself again pause.

With that being said thanks to everyone who comments good advice and everyone who’s on this journey to leave this devil Alone. I hope everyone have a good day

Thank you god for this gift of life I won’t waste another day not being my best self. Ameen

I’ve sat here all day and replayed the past 2-3 months. My gambling addiction has spiraled so bad. I bet till there’s nothing left. Lie and borrow just to lose it. For 2 years this addiction took everything. And I keep feeding it. My credit is ruined I owe debt to the banks currently being sued. I’m in debt with my mom which makes me sick to think about. My next week checks are always already accounted for before I even see the money. What kind of life is this. Down over a 100k and every time I think I’m done I relapse even harder. A new rock bottom every week. The past 8–9 weeks I’ve lost everything every single time. This past 2 weeks I managed to waste 1800 I didn’t even know I had that money till I did the math. My 25th birthday is tomorrow and I’m piss poor. My car has no gas. My mom is my only support and she’s mad at me and has every right to be.

This addiction is pathetic you’ll lose your whole life and have nothing to show for it. While people and friends are living they best life in speed running destruction on mine. I’m so lonely and hate this feeling of emptiness. Losing all my money weekly. Owing people. My next check on Thursday is all going to my mom and my cousin. I hate owing money. So I’ll be broke for another 2 weeks. Then have to start saving for rent and other bills my next 3 checks. Every weekend I set my self back further.

I’m starting over day 1 for me. Deep down I’m trying to forgive myself and hoping I can finally change my life. I always said by the time I’m 25 I’ll have this or done that. And I have achieved nothing because of my own doings and this crippling addiction. I just keep hurting myself for no reason bro