I just use food to sooth myself. It's been 6 years since I've been trying to fix my life. Now that I am independent at 24 i still spend most of my money on food. Like really junk food. I can't afford to pay this much. I just can't help me
I don't no. I feel suicidal all the time. I am just in a new place physically but mentally nothing has changed these years.
I Will be shamed for gaining weight (Yaa because that's how I cope with all the abuse you have done to me. That's the only way I can sooth myself)
They'll shame me for my unhealthy face that's full of pimples.
They'll shame me for what I eat
They'll shame me for existing and surviving each day .
I hate it. Even the thought of them visiting kills me inside
I hate them. I want them gone out of my life.
I remember when I told my that I earned my first paycheck she asked me how much is it? I told her the amount and her response was that's it ?
I am just sick of them
it's been more than 6 years I've been struggling with my mental health. I keep trying and trying to get better. But I got in an unhealthy relationship and it was abusive and lasted for a year it f**ed me up real bad. I just feel s*****l again
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I keep eating junk to numb myself I overeat till I feel like puking. I masterbate alot to numb myself. I am struggling with my sleep. I just wanna disappear from this world.
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I have been in therapy for past 1yr. I have read Books. I know this is because of all the abuse I have been through in my childhood. I can't hide my struggle any longer
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I moved out of my house. I got an internship 1yr long and it's going well My manager said they are gonna keep me in his team only but still I feel I won't get the fulltime role .
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I want this to stop. I don't know what is this. I am just tired and i need a break. I need a hug. I need someone safe so i can cry. I am just in pain. So much pain. I am just tired of running.
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I don't know what is this but mostly Cptsd or idk
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Pls suggest me some psychiatrist in Pune who is aware of Cptsd
it's been more than 6 years I've been struggling with my mental health. I keep trying and trying to get better. But I got in an unhealthy relationship and it was abusive and lasted for a year it fucked me up real bad. I just feel suicidal again after a long time.
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I keep eating junk to numb myself. I masterbate alot to numb myself. I am struggling with my sleep. I just wanna disappear from this word.
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I have been in therapy for past 1yr. I have read Books. I know this is because of all the abuse I have been through in my childhood. I can't hide my struggle any longer
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I moved out of my house. I got an internship 1yr long and it's going well My manager said they are gonna keep me in his team only but still I feel I won't get the fulltime role .
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I want this to stop. I don't know what is this. I am just tired and i need a break. I need a hug. I need someone safe so i can cry. I am just in pain. So much pain. I am just tired of running.
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I don't know what is this but mostly Cptsd or idk
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Pls suggest me some psychiatrist in Pune who is aware of Cptsd
I don't know why. I just feel empty. Feels like life is meaningless. I am turned 24. I had to work really hard to afford my own place and therapy and everything but life feels empty. I can't connect with any of my friends. I try to hangout with them but it just feels lonely. I don't have hobbies. I don't like doing anything. Life is just work , eat sleep and repeat. I stuff myself with junk food to feel good. And the worst thing now is that monsoon is here and I hate when it rains. I just feel sad seeing those dark clouds. I don't know what to do. Nothing makes me feel seen. I ended an abusive relationship 6 months ago but now I miss them. Even tho it was abusive but at least I had something going.
I know my brain is wired to feel like home with such people and I am aware that even tho I want them badly, I will suffer when I go back with them. I don't know what to do. I just wanna disappear. I don't know what to do.....
I’m 23 software development intern at an investment bank. After years of dealing with severe, high functioning depression, a couple of gap years for my mental health, and an immense amount of hard work and therapy, I am finally in a place where I no longer feel suicidal and am genuinely doing much, much better than I was 5 years ago.
To celebrate surviving the grind and just to give myself a break, I took a leave from the office starting today until next Tuesday. I traveled back to my hometown to spend time at my parents' house, but I have absolutely nothing scheduled.
I want to do something meaningful, memorable, or just uniquely interesting with this blank slate of a week, so I’m leaving it up to you. I will strictly commit to doing whatever the top comment says, provided it follows these
Rules:
Timeframe: It must be something I can realistically complete or achieve by next Tuesday or keep doing even with my work
Location: I just got back home after a long time and want to savor being here, so it has to be something I can do without leaving my house.
Budget: I am just an intern, so please don't make me spend a lot of money. Cheap or free is the way to go.
The Spirit: Please suggest something meaningful, memorable, creative, or deeply grounding.