u/Evening_Ad_2347

Kala ko nung una kaya ko. It's all fun and games

not until you shoot a message in teams asking questions and nobody answers.

When during work engagements, they make everyone choose partners and nobody wants to partner with you, so you just stand like a dumb fuck in the corner.

When you try to strike small talks but they give you one word answers and move on with their day.

Not until you need help with something and nobody wants to help.

Ang hirap pala nung mantra na "Go to work, get paid and go home"

Sa work, importante pala ang culture fit. It's important to make friends cos it's easier to get the job done.

Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit. Sa previous job ko I have friends. Solid friends at hanggang ngayon in touch kami. Bakit dito ang hirap? How do I survive this? Nafifeel ko talaga yung exclusion araw araw.

Hindi naman ako pangit, lalong hindi naman ako mabaho. Mabango naman hininga ko bat ayaw nila ako kausap?

Dahil ba mga tanders to sila? I'm the youngest in the team.

May 2 JO ako before ako nagstart sa company ko ngayon.

One was for 40k basic, L2 Client Support. Sa L2 Client Support, onsite yung interview ko and I felt really welcomed by the Manager and TL. Nakasundo ko kaagad sila at...ewan. Something just feels right nung nandoon ako at nameet ko yung iba pang L2. I saw myself working there. The managers were hardworking women who made sure I'm comfortable, we even drank coffee together while we got to know each other. Lol.

The other was 45k basic, L1 ITSD. Malaki din allowance so 50k total package. Zoom interview. Transactional lang. Straight to the point. No personal questions to get to know me.

I chose the latter cos I needed a higher salary. Marami akong bayarin, eh. Naisip ko kaya ko naman siguro tiisin kahit male-dominated workplace ito.

And now I regret it. Hirap humingi ng tulong sa mga kawork na masusungit. Hirap humingi ng pabor. Uso ang biglaang tanggalan at mahirap mag leave. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells kasi yung Manager ko perfectionist at ilang beses na akong pinahiya, all because I make mistakes as a newbie.

I have no friends here. For some reason, yung mga kawork ko parang mga walang kaluluwa. They don't talk to each other. They don't care. Parang mga robot at sanay na sila doon. The office is too dim and depressing. I feel alone and stupid.

Kaya sa mga naghahanap ng work diyan, the vibe during interview matters. Kung may pagpipilian kayo, trust your gut. If the vibe is off, wag na kayong tumuloy.

Bago lang ako sa work at tinatry ko makisama. Aaminin ko hindi ako kagalingan maglaro pero sila naman ang nagpilit sakin sumali.

I feel so pathetic getting slightly hurt by this, but I just want to get it off my chest. Ang hirap hirap na nga makisama dahil ako lang babae sa dept namin. The shock I felt when I logged in later, nireport na pala ako lol.

Hindi ko alam kung makakatagal ako. Umpisa palang parang off na yung feeling sa office. I know immature ma hurt sa ganto pero ewan, may kurot?