u/Every23

Me and you used to banter all the time about this topic. I strongly believed that the expirience mattered more than the people you did it with. That no matter who you were spending time with it mattered what were you doing. Because with everyone you could spend a nice time (obv the exeption would be those people close to u aka best friends in which they would make the experience itself). You used to tell me instead that no matter what was happening it the important thing was to do it with people that mattered to you, with the right people. Only now that you are gone and we broke up do I realize you were right. You changed me so much without me realizing it, and I dont yet know if I love or hate this change but I know that it feels so weird. And one of the things that changed is this: it is indeed people over experiences. Now experiences just feels wrong when done with random people or with people that don’t matter to me. It feels as if there is something missing, that feeling of mutual agreement and understanding which makes the expirience. Now I can’t appreciate anything like I used to, and I need to change my view and the few people i have left in my life to find the right ones. I miss you every day and I can’t share this with you anymore. Thank you for the change you gave me and I am slowly rediscovering myself without you. I hope one day to share all of this with you

I truly can’t, the pain of having lost you has been eating me up every day for the past month, since we broke up. I have a hunch that u’ll come back but how do I know that that hunch isn’t just hope? Our last convo was supposed go help me get over and achieve closure, yet it truly didn’t help. I understood you better but at what cost. I am growing and changing but at what cost. I’ll be yours and deal with the pain that comes with it.

Never before have i realized how much ur body relaxed me. You have been such a stable point in my life since we have been friends that ur presence could calm me down and ground me. When we started cuddling it just felt right, a perfect match like never before. I crave it so much, i thought about contacting you but last time we spoke you told me that it was going to be our last conversation. I crave being cuddled and my plushies are just not doing the job they are supposed to. I miss you. I love you.

I kept on being so fearful of loosing you that I would constantly overthink any of ur actions, and then those thoughts would completely blurry you. Thank you for opening up to me, for being my best friend, my boyfriend, my support and the person who initiated my real growth. Now it’s my turn to push myself, I’ll become the woman that I am meant to be, the one who should have been in a relationship with you. I promise you that I will never destroy myself again, the year we have been togheter I kept on piling myself up with work, which slowly made me loose myself, loose my happiness, and loose the one you fell in love with. I know you will be proud of me and of who Ill become and I am so proud of ur growth while we have been togheter and ur future growth. I will never forget you.
Never be scared again of ur actions, do not overthink interactions with people because no matter if you do mistakes or not, the real people that are meant to be in uour life will recognize how amazing you are since the first interaction. Any time you overthink remember that I am here telling you that everything will be all right.
As your best friend, I hope you will find a woman that will be as loyal and trustworthy as I was to you. That will be ur happiness when life gets heavy and that will never be so emotionally overloaded that that stops her from recognizing her love for you. A partner that will never emotionally burn you out and that will recognize every day the jewel that she or he has. And that will love you as intensently as I did, while letting you feel safe in opening up. I love you.

I kept on being so fearful of loosing you that I would constantly overthink any of ur actions, and then those thoughts would completely blurry you. Thank you for opening up to me, for being my best friend, my boyfriend, my support and the person who initiated my real growth. Now it’s my turn to push myself, I’ll become the woman that I am meant to be, the one who should have been in a relationship with you. I promise you that I will never destroy myself again, the year we have been togheter I kept on piling myself up with work, which slowly made me loose myself, loose my happiness, and loose the one you fell in love with. I know you will be proud of me and of who Ill become and I am so proud of ur growth while we have been togheter and ur future growth. I will never forget you.
Never be scared again of ur actions, do not overthink interactions with people because no matter if you do mistakes or not, the real people that are meant to be in uour life will recognize how amazing you are since the first interaction. Any time you overthink remember that I am here telling you that everything will be all right.
As your best friend, I hope you will find a woman that will be as loyal and trustworthy as I was to you. That will be ur happiness when life gets heavy and that will never be so emotionally overloaded that that stops her from recognizing her love for you. A partner that will never emotionally burn you out and that will recognize every day the jewel that she or he has. And that will love you as intensently as I did, while letting you feel safe in opening up. I love you.

Hey, I love you and miss you every day. I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself for not having been able to tell you I loved you when I was overwhelmed. Only now do I understand what my actions meant to you and how much I hurt you. I come to the park we had our last conversation quite often since that happened. I don’t know why I do it, I just hope one day I’ll be able to speak to you again. I never told you but the reason you were my only support is because the ex before you would force me to solenly rely on him and that bad habit stayed with me and ruined our relationship. I am so sorry. I am now alone, I am trying to build friendships with new people but no one is like you. You were my bestfriend, my support and my boyfriend. Nobody ever will mean to me as much as you did and I wouldn’t change that ever again. I wish I could just go back and be there for you when I needed, instead you burned out yourself for me. I am learning so much and I know it is good for me regardless but I do wonder what is the point if I cant share it with you. I am changing but what is the point if you are not there telling me you are proud of me. You also said it would work if we both grew out of our mistakes. Please to whoever is reading this never forget to be there for the people you love because you never know when it will be the last time you can do so. Never forget what ur partner is doing for you and always always tell them how much you love them. I love you and I wish I told you when I should have and thta I could have just listened to your issues and been there for you instead of putting myself first.