My twin sister and my bsf and me have bdays together, but me being single
It's not like I'm male centred but especially on birthdays when my sister's boyfriend and my bestfriends boyfriend constantly msg me to.ask me to choose which bag which heels and other gifts to give to them....i help them with my full heart but there's always a stinging feeling that I don't have someone who is looking forward for my bday like this...my parents don't believe in bdays thaat much so in school days it wasn't an issue but my sister used to feel sad but now since 2-3 years she is the happiest around her bday and I'm so happy for her that she got someone who.loves her like this same goes with my bsfrnd she toh never even wanted or imagined things like this...his boyfriend.. although being from a middle class family outs efforts saves pocket money and has literally bought disegner bags and gold jewellery for her ...and same i feel the happiest for her too ...and then there's me I mean I am gonna be 22 and i have been single like 95% of my life but idk I feel soooo lonely especially around my bday....I have had dated but it lasted 4 months and he never put that much effort so I like kinda distant myself more from dating because I have talked to like 2-3 guys till now and i could only and only sense lust from them after a period of time so it gave me a certain kind of ick from men...and to give you a context it's not like i am ugly ot something I am actually born pretty I have always had male attention that was the reason I decided to date only when I got to college but as I started interacting with the guy even though I didn't like him i always respected him but I was always taken for granted by then...so yaa i was feeling depressed so i expressed...kinda feels light