u/Existing_Stranger626

19M. feel like i'm not anyone's first choice, insecure, semi-depressed for months.

Sorry this is gonna be a bit long.

I feel like i'm not really anyone's first choice, it feels like i'm just a convenience or just useful for other people. it's not that i don't have friends, there's been times i felt so alone cause to most people i'm just there and it genuienly made me so feel depressed (i was scrolling su*cidal reels for a bit) i've learnt over time to just depend on myself and i never call someone my best friend cause it just disappoints me every time.

For people who've been here, how did you love yourself? I struggle with self worth and feeling loved a bit. I'm 19 but I feel 16 emotionally, life is moving so fast and I feel so out of place and behind. My career looks fine on paper, i'm finishing second year uni at 19 but this year's been tough and i'm falling off and my whole identity is collapsing too. I spent so much time working that i neglected my hobbies and the other side of my life. I'm not great at socialising or finding real friends and i've never been on a date before. I hardly manage to like anyone and I've only managed to catch feelings for my best friend which ruined so many things.

Does anyone have any advice? thanks.

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u/Existing_Stranger626 — 8 hours ago

i feel like i'm never anyone's first choice

i feel like i'm never anyone's first choice. it sometimes feels like i'm just a convenience for other people or just useful. it's not that i don't have friends, there's been times i felt so alone cause to most people i just am there and i'm not really anything and it genuienly made me feel so depressed. i've learnt over time to just depend on myself and i never call someone my best friend cause it just disappoints me every time. people can leave spontaneously and i don't really know what to expect anymore. i'm 19 finishing second year at uni and my career looks great but life is just so disappointing i don't know what i'm working towards. i don't know who i am anymore.

anyone have any advice?

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u/Existing_Stranger626 — 9 hours ago

been semi-depressed and unmotivated for 7 months. how to stop being insecure

As the post says, I've been on really low motivation for maybe 7 months on/off. There were points I was semi-depressed watching su*cidal reels. I struggle with self worth and feeling loved quite a bit. How do you love yourself? I'm 19 but i feel 16 emotionally, life is moving so fast and I feel so out of place and behind. I also have trust issues, I have some friends but I don't trust them fully. I try to do everything alone and pretend I don't need anyone but it's tough.

I'm technically capable but i don't feel like it at all. i'm finishing my second year at university (i'm a year younger than everyone else). My career looks good on paper but I feel like i'm falling off and my whole identity is going down thedrain. I got known for being the "smart" one but people just take advantage of me and I want people to forget who I am now. it feels like i lost my spark a bit.

I spent so much time working that i neglected my hobbies and the other side of my life. I struggle socialising and i've never been on a date before. I hardly manage to like anyone and I've only managed to catch feelings for my best friend which ruined so many things. Finding friends i can trust is hard already. I just keep living to prove i'm capable. I'm not really attractive in any sense or "intellectually smart" I just know how to work 9-11 every day.

I don't want to sound ungrateful but does anyone have advice?

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been semi-depressed and unmotivated for 7 months. how to stop being insecure

As the post says, I've been on really low motivation for maybe 7 months on/off. There were points I was semi-depressed watching su*cidal reels. I struggle with self worth and feeling loved quite a bit. How do you love yourself? I'm 19 but i feel 16 emotionally, life is moving so fast and I feel so out of place and behind. I also have trust issues, I have some friends but I don't trust them fully. I try to do everything alone and pretend I don't need anyone but it's tough.

I'm technically capable but i don't feel like it at all. i'm finishing my second year at university (i'm a year younger than everyone else). My career looks good on paper but I feel like i'm falling off and my whole identity is going down thedrain. I got known for being the "smart" one but people just take advantage of me and I want people to forget who I am now. it feels like i lost my spark a bit.

I spent so much time working that i neglected my hobbies and the other side of my life. I struggle socialising and i've never been on a date before. I hardly manage to like anyone and I've only managed to catch feelings for my best friend which ruined so many things. Finding friends i can trust is hard already. I just keep living to prove i'm capable. I'm not really attractive in any sense or "intellectually smart" I just know how to work 9-11 every day.

I don't want to sound ungrateful but does anyone have advice?

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u/Existing_Stranger626 — 2 days ago

how do you stop being so insecure and depressed

hi there. i really want some help, if someone can give some advice that would be great.

i'm 19 and i really struggle with self worth. i was semi-depressed for like at least 4 months and it's not the first time i've been like this. i feel like i'm 16 emotionally, but life is moving so fast and i feel so out of place and behind with life. i'm technically capable but i don't feel like it at all. i'm finishing my second year at university (i'm a year younger than everyone else), i've secured internships and i was top of my cohort last year, but i feel like i'm falling off and my whole identity is going down the drain. i got known for being "smart" but people just take advantage of me and i don't like it and i want people to forget who i am now. it feels like i've lost my "spark".

i also have trust issues, i do have some friends but i don't trust them fully. i try to do everything alone and pretend i don't need anyone but i can't take this anymore. i spent so much time working that i neglected my hobbies and the other side of my life. i struggle socialising and i've never been on a date before. i hardly manage to like anyone and if i do it's just unrequited love and i get too attached and it doesn't end well. finding friends i can trust is hard already. i just keep living to prove i'm capable. i'm not really attractive in any sense or "intellectually smart" i just know how to work 9-11 every day.

i don't want to sound ungrateful. but how does one feel less insecure about oneself. does anyone relate and if they've been through this, what helped you love yourself? thanks and please be kind.

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u/Existing_Stranger626 — 3 days ago