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Akala ko dati, OA lang yung mga taong sobrang nasasaktan kapag iniwan sila. Noong bata ako, kapag nakakakita ako ng mga babaeng umiiyak dahil sa breakup, iniisip ko na eventually makaka-move on din naman sila, so bakit parang sobrang big deal?

Now I understand.

Ang sakit pala talaga kapag natapos ang isang relasyon na walang closure. Yung tipong wala kang maayos na ending, walang malinaw na sagot, at naiwan ka lang mag-isa para buuin lahat ng piraso. It's not just the loss of the person—it's the unanswered questions, the what-ifs, and the feeling of being left behind without understanding why.

Lately, hindi ko na alam kung paano uusad. Pagod na pagod na ako. I want to grow, heal, and move forward, pero parang sa bawat hakbang na ginagawa ko, wala namang nangyayari. Dagdag pa yung pressure ng buhay at ng future. Minsan pakiramdam ko, nalulunod na ako sa expectations at responsibilities.

What makes it harder is that some of the people I expected would support me are the same people who minimize my feelings. Madalas kong marinig yung, "Maliit na bagay lang 'yan," or "Move on ka na." But grief doesn't work that way. Pain doesn't disappear just because someone else thinks it should.

To be honest, I feel like I'm already dead inside. I'm still here, still functioning, still showing up every day—but it feels like a part of me has completely shut down. Things that used to make me happy don't excite me anymore. The motivation I once had is gone. Most days, I'm just surviving rather than living.

I'm trying my best every day, but honestly, I'm tired. Not just tired from the breakup, but tired from carrying everything at once while pretending I'm okay.

I don't really know what I'm expecting from posting this. Maybe I just needed a place where I can be honest about how heavy everything feels right now. If you've gone through a breakup without closure, how did you eventually find peace with it? I'm struggling to find mine.

Hey y'all just wanna rant.

I’m the type of friend na laging nangangamusta at laging iniisip kung okay ba yung mga tao sa paligid ko. I have this one friend na super close ko talaga—she’s my best friend and soul sister.

May mga misunderstandings kami minsan, pero usually siya yung na-o-offend or nagtatampo, and ako yung laging gumagawa ng way para mag-ayos because ayoko ng drama. Ayoko rin kasi na ma-feel niya na wala siyang kakampi, kasi yun yung sinabi niya before nung high school siya. Kaya siguro ganun kami ka-close, kasi sobrang similar namin in a lot of ways.

Sinasama ko siya sa lahat, and whenever I can, I share what I have with her. Not to brag or anything, pero I really treat her like my best friend. Kung ano meron ako, gusto ko meron din siya.

Pero lately, nag-iba na yung lahat. Pag lumalabas kami, minsan may mood swings siya—bigla na lang siyang naiinis or galit without me even knowing why. May times din na bigla siyang nagiging cold or nagdadabog without explaining anything.

And now, I’m just tired.

Napaisip ako na ako lang pala lagi yung gumagawa ng effort. Kapag ako yung nasasaktan or nalulungkot, ako pa rin yung nagfi-fix. Parang lagi na lang ako yung naga-adjust at umuunawa.

Napaisip din ako… maybe tapos na yung purpose ko sa life niya? Parang ako lang yung sumasalo sa kanya kapag nahihirapan siya—emotionally, even financially kapag kaya ko tumulong.

Then one day, bigla na lang siyang hindi nagparamdam. No explanation. No closure.

Ewan ko.

What should I do? Kasama ko siya sa group project and ayoko sana maapektuhan yung performance ko. Pero knowing myself, soft hearted ako, and alam kong maaapektuhan ako nito somehow.

Hey guys, so I’m lowkey looking for friends here. Life’s kinda boring rn since I’m just waiting for graduation. I wanna know your life ganaps and like anything you wanna share. Also lowkey looking for someone to talk to since my bff and I kinda drifted apart haha lol. From pangasinan here!

Hellooo. Anybody here po na may alam na work for graduating student near urbiz or san Carlos area? Marketing Management here. Thank youuu

I think i need a good fvcking cry. Nafefeel ko lang emptiness pero ayoko ng ganito. Andaming nangyayari pero di ako makaiyak.

I’m just an average person. Nothing really special about me, but one thing I know for sure is that when I love, I give everything. Whether it’s friendship or a relationship, I always pour my whole heart into people.

With my ex, moving on has been so hard because he was the first person I ever introduced to my family. He earned their trust even without doing much, and I genuinely thought he was different. I thought I finally found someone who would choose me and stay. But I was wrong.

He’s avoidant. Every time we argued, I was always the one begging to fix us while he was always ready to give up and leave. That became our cycle. No matter how much I tried to hold us together, it always felt like I was loving harder for the both of us. And even after everything, I still love him. A part of me still wants him back, even though I know I’ll probably end up hurting myself again.

Now it feels like everything in my life is falling apart at the same time. I’m graduating, pressured about my future, and on top of that, my best friend suddenly stopped talking to me. That pain hits differently because I gave everything to that friendship too. I treated her like family. I understood her during her mood swings even when it was already hurting me, but in the end, it felt so easy for her to throw me away like I meant nothing.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. It feels like no matter how genuine I am, I’m always the one who gets left behind. Lately, it feels like the world is against me, and I’m getting tired of giving my whole heart to people who can let me go so easily.

I’m just an average person. Nothing really special about me, but one thing I know for sure is that when I love, I give everything. Whether it’s friendship or a relationship, I always pour my whole heart into people.

With my ex, moving on has been so hard because he was the first person I ever introduced to my family. He earned their trust even without doing much, and I genuinely thought he was different. I thought I finally found someone who would choose me and stay. But I was wrong.

He’s avoidant. Every time we argued, I was always the one begging to fix us while he was always ready to give up and leave. That became our cycle. No matter how much I tried to hold us together, it always felt like I was loving harder for the both of us. And even after everything, I still love him. A part of me still wants him back, even though I know I’ll probably end up hurting myself again.

Now it feels like everything in my life is falling apart at the same time. I’m graduating, pressured about my future, and on top of that, my best friend suddenly stopped talking to me. That pain hits differently because I gave everything to that friendship too. I treated her like family. I understood her during her mood swings even when it was already hurting me, but in the end, it felt so easy for her to throw me away like I meant nothing.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. It feels like no matter how genuine I am, I’m always the one who gets left behind. Lately, it feels like the world is against me, and I’m getting tired of giving my whole heart to people who can let me go so easily.