My boyfriend broke up with me by leaving a note.
Hello All,
I'm writing here because I am spiraling and could use some different perspectives. Throw away just in case someone I know follows my personal Reddit.
Last week, the day before my birthday, my boyfriend (M - 24) broke up with me (F - 24) by leaving a note on my coffee table. I am so thrown off because before this, we had been fine. Nothing seemed wrong. We were going on dates, spending time together, and making plans. Something to keep in mind, that morning, before I left for work, he kissed me and said, "I love you. See you tonight! We'll make Jell-O shots for your party tomorrow together when you get back." We were also supposed to go on a trip the day after that for a couple of days. It would also have been our one year next month. The note was vague and short. It basically said that he doesn't want to hurt me because his mental space isn't where it should be. Another thing to note is that he does have autism. The only thing I can think of is that he panicked about all of the milestones coming up and just left. He left everything other than his clothes behind and sent me money later that night with a note apologizing. I am blocked on Snap and his phone number, but nothing else, so that is also throwing me off. We haven't spoken, but I do want to have a convo at some point. I'm thinking of sending the money back and saying, "I love you, and I am concerned about you. I would appreciate a conversation." or something like that. I know a lot of people will tell me to keep the money, but I really don't want it to be honest. I just want him. I really think if he had just communicated whatever was going on, we would still be together.
I know us not speaking ever again or getting back together is a very real possibility, but I do think this could work if we just talk. The challenge is just getting the conversation to happen. This is very out of character for him, which is what concerns me.