u/ExpensiveEye3181

I saw you looking at me from the corner of my eye.

After that, our eyes kept meeting in a crowded room.

Sometimes you glanced over at me and I was already looking at you. I think you knew, because you gave me a shy, knowing smile. You held my gaze. Neither of us looked away.

You're really beautiful.

The way your eyes sparkle when you're excited about something. The nervous and timid energy I feel when we are alone. The way your eyes widen when you see me.

Yet, I don't have the courage to tell you how I feel about you.

I've carried so much shame regarding my attraction to women. Growing up, girls would talk openly about their crushes on boys. I would lie and make shit up. I learned to suppress myself and stuff it all down. My whole life has been hiding.

What if they see me...

Blushing over her

Journaling about her

Staring a little longer than I should

One day I noticed this woman. I've noticed many women before but for the first time, the feelings felt mutual. We kept making eye contact and smiling at each other with knowing eyes. It was the unspoken attraction and tension of 2 closeted women.

How could this beautiful feminine woman be attracted to another feminine woman? She awakened a deeply vulnerable and suppressed part of myself that was locked away for so long.

She symbolized my freedom from hiding.

maybe they fill a yearning in our hearts that ache for something deeper.

For me it was to be seen

the 9-5 slog

every day is the same. no one looks up from their desk

they're all caught up in their work

for a while, it felt like no one saw me

might as well be i n v i s i b l e

i didn't notice you at first

but then I saw your eyes on me

our eyes kept meeting

like a shared secret

no words were spoken, but you held my gaze a little too long

i think I like you, and the way you make me feel seen in a lifeless place

the eyes never lie