u/ExpensiveLemon3027

Couldn't care less for those lips before.

Were her eyes always as bright before?

As her nails dug into the dough,

Sweat rolled down her collar bones.

They fell down like pearls from under the sea

How could I have missed that hair, like a beautiful shrubbery?

And the more look, the more I know

What they'd all been seeing from ages ago.

The clearer it gets, the lesser the hurts

I accept defeat, I'm letting go:

Any desire, any dream

Of finding someone,

To whom I might seem

like one such- insatiable dream.

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https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/oqEoT1xBjR

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/aEKiqrZJcH

We met at the station, we both ran late.

Next as announced, would be delayed.

We were kept waiting, it continued to rain.

When the rain stopped, finally came the train.

I climbed up, and he stayed behind.

A little more of him, and I'd have lost my mind.

Kept forgetting as I was smitten-

We were both late, but to different locations.

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[https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/VHOWdy6diB](https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/VHOWdy6diB)

[https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/Ca9mxaAHqI](https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/Ca9mxaAHqI)

Will complete 4hrs of studying before going to bed

Couldn't care less for those lips before

Were her eyes always as bright before?

As her nails dug into the dough,

Sweat rolled down her collar bones.

They fell down like pearls from under the sea

How could I've missed her hair, like a beautiful shrubbery.

And the more look, the more I know.

What they'd all been seeing from ages ago.

The clearer it gets, the lesser it hurts

I accept defeat, as I am letting go

Any desire, any dream

Of finding someone,

For whom I might seem

like one such insatiable dream.

We met at the station, we both ran late.

Next as announced, would be delayed.

We were kept waiting, it continued to rain.

When the rain stopped, there finally came the train.

I climbed up, and she stayed behind.

A little more of her, and I'd have lost my mind.

Kept forgetting as I was smitten-

We were both late, but to different locations.

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https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/VHOWdy6diB

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/Ca9mxaAHqI

We met at the station, we both ran late.

Next as announced, would be delayed.

We were kept waiting, it continued to rain.

When the rain stopped, there finally came the train.

I climbed up, and she stayed behind.

A little more of her, and I'd have lost my mind.

Kept forgetting as I was smitten-

We were both late, but to different locations.

We met at the station, we both ran late.

Next as announced, would be delayed.

We were kept waiting, it continued to rain.

When the rain stopped, there finally came the train.

I climbed up, and she stayed behind.

A little more of her, and I'd have lost my mind.

Kept forgetting as I was smitten-

We were both late, but to different locations.

Vent as a student-

This is not about something that has happened to me today, more like what's been happening forever and is once again beginning to worry me as my exams get closer.

I was never a very sincere student, neither very intelligent but not totally stupid either... So yeah, my motto has been more or less to just "wing it"... Yeah.

That's how I'm where I am. Not too strange, I guess.

If I had any other passions I could've revolted about leaving this and following my "heart".

But sadly I'm as boring as just bread, or a plain tortilla chip. You can dip me in anything, and I'll be that. Plus I don't dislike it because it is adding value to me. Anything better than plain chips.

It's just that, I feel I'm not holding up. I'm not broken yet, but I feel I'm not the best chip for holding the dip.

Some are doing quite well, but I'm getting soggy (lol, but yeah)

Anyways, keeping all this in mind I actually tried to work hard because yk what I can't just fail, right... I've got to try, cuz what better am I without trying? :)

I get up early, try to sit, torture myself by not allowing to watch a movie untill I finish the target... But it doesn't really go according to the plan.

The plan was to have successfully enjoyed a few movies till now, but I haven't watched a single one yet, because I never finished my target.

I got up really early, didn't nap, sat down for hours just to study.--- still not enough!!

Although I haven't watched a movie, I've spent hrs on my phone doom scrolling. Why? Because I couldn't focus and procratinate... I tried to be strict, but my body has no passion or motivation... Even for my own goals?! Really?

Anyway, maybe I would still pass, as somehow I always have(fingers crossed), but no marksheet has ever made me proud.

It's just something you must have to move on. That's it.

(Kinda like- yes, I'm a chip... Just not crunchy anymore. Do I even matter now?)

And, tbh... Who doesn't dream of being the best? Would passing ever satisfy...

Sometimes I think failing is better, at least both me and others will know where I truly belong. At least I won't feel like a fraudster, and stop trying to chase some vague promise of happiness and success. (Tbh, I don't want to fail, haha 😅)

Anyway the point is, that after finally trying to do something intentionally and then failing miserabely, at such a tiny task really hurts my self confidence (as if it was even there)

It hurts my identity, you know.

I've always known myself as nothing too fancy, just a plain chip... and suddenly I won't be that anymore too.

Oh it hurts! Kinda scary.

How could I just be free when this ticking clock in my brain, that this merry week is soon to be over?

If there is an outdoor activity, that's understandable. But sitting at home, how could I be happy to just be home, with a huge countdown in my brain?

"7 days, 6 days, 5 more..."

It gets even more frustrating to not be able to enjoy when I was supposed to be enjoying!! Also for such a reason? -_-

Also, as I've grown up- for some reason my brain has set standards for enjoyment as well. If it is not according to that... Well, what a waste! "You couldn't even enjoy!!"

I am average, not too bad that won't fit in

But not too loud that'd ever be 'seen'

I quietly operate like a prototype once made.

In offices and homes, and I do as they say.

When I was first bought I came with a set of instructions,

And a word of caution- "Beware! Or else you'd malfunction!"

Everyday I hear of the fancy new discoveries,

And the hype around it all makes me thirsty.

There comes in me too, a brand new surge of passion!

Because honestly, nobody knows it but, I've always craved attention!

I wonder what would happen if I'd ignore the word of caution

Would pressing two buttons make me the world's new invention?

I think about it all, I dream of blazing a trail

But a 'trail' of what, if you ask me,

To answer that, I'd fail.

In an attempt to be 'the one', I'd only light the place on fire-

Taking away with mine, the lives of another.

After all this, would it still matter?

So much pain to only be remembered?

'Anyone can dream, anyone can be!'

But as I grow older, I've learnt that's not my place to be.

It isn't what I was engineered to be.

But the world is beautiful!

And I'd love to see, many heroes rise and fall

While quietly sipping my coffee :)

I am average, not too bad that won't fit in

But not too loud that'd ever be 'seen'

I quietly operate like a prototype once made.

In offices and homes, and I do as they say.

When I was first bought I came with a set of instructions,

And a word of caution- "Beware! Or else you'd malfunction!"

Everyday I hear of the fancy new discoveries,

And the hype around it all makes me thirsty.

There comes in me too, a brand new surge of passion!

Because honestly, nobody knows it but, I've always craved attention!

I wonder what would happen if I'd ignore the word of caution

Would pressing two buttons make me the world's new invention?

I think about it all, I dream of blazing a trail

But a 'trail' of what, if you ask me,

To answer that, I'd fail.

In an attempt to be 'the one', I'd only light the place on fire-

Taking away with mine, the lives of another.

After all this, would it still matter?

So much pain to only be remembered?

'Anyone can dream, anyone can be!'

But as I grow older, I've learnt that's not my place to be.

It isn't what I was engineered to be.

But the world is beautiful!

And I'd love to see, many heroes rise and fall

While quietly sipping my coffee :)