u/ExpressionOld9924

Its not as dire as the title sounds. I find myself thinking randomly, God I hope I don’t get cancer and die while my baby still needs me.

As a mother who gave birth at 35yrs old, it’s said that cancer risks are higher, etc. i am seeing her grow more and more each day, and I want to be a part of it always.

Anyone else feel like this? How do you cope? I already have a therapist and have discussed this and came up ways to change my perspective…but it doesnt change the fact that these thoughts arise every now and again.

My LO went thru a phase of multiple false starts and night wakes at 6 months, which faded after a few weeks, no changes to schedule.

At 7.5 months, she began 5am EMW and would wake every 1hr til she got up at our usual time. That lasted almost a month, then she STTN as before. No changes to schedule. She did learn to crawl around then so I get why it was happening. It sucked though lol.

Now, she is almost 10 months, and began EMW again at 4am. No changes to her schedule, tho she is teething. And is cruising the entire length of our living room couches and ottomans, and crawl races around the house lol. So I get it, development.

But is it common that these “regressions” come and go? She had the “8 month regression” and then it went away and she STTN for a few weeks, now this is back.

She sleeps at 10:30/11pm, wakes at 8:30-9am.

3/4/4, with a 1.5-2hrs and 30-40 min nap.

I dont think we could physically add more awake time or take away nap time without her melting down.

Anyone experience coming and going of EMW at this age? Did it just go away once the thing (teething, skill) passed? Thanks in advance!

Any words of advice?

I am doing 2ppd 12 hrs apart. I don’t feel pain or engorgement, and honestly dont really feel uncomfortable even at 12.5 hrs. I feel ready.

How long did it take you to wean to 1ppd? How long were your pumps? What did you do to wean to that number?

And what volume did you drop to?

I am at 450mL btwn the 2ppd, and I pump for 1hr each time.

I am thinking of dropping 10 mins a time to and pushing my morning pump.

I just read the story about Athena Strand, a 7 yr old who was kidnapped and murdered by a Fed ex delivery guy.

I won’t go into too many details, but I am so disturbed. I have a 9 month old girl, and I am absolutely terrified about the world I’ve brought her into. That the world isn’t fair or safe for females.

We used to ride our bikes and play outside until dark, no cell phones, parents never knew where we were until we came home. Athena? She was abducted from her own driveway. She wasn’t even safe steps outside of her own home.

Now? I will let her out of my sight when she’s graduated college or uni.

And what pump do you use?

Curious abt this! I take an hr, but need to use low settings. When the settings are too high it just hurts and gets less milk out. Thanks in advance for any insight!

My baby is 9.5 months, just started crawling and pulling to stand. Also babbling! Its been a rollercoaster of a time.

She was always a fussy difficult baby, not because of colic or anything. But she used to get bored SO easily. Would scream and cry and fuss to be picked up thru her wake windows when she was younger. I am convinced now that it is because she hated being an immobile baby. Ever since she learned to crawl and stand, she is a different baby! So happy.

That said, bonding with her was hard at first. She only used to play and smile with her dad. With me, it was screaming and crying and fussing all day. Even though she spent so much more time with me. When she hit 4 months, she started preferring me for comfort, hugs, and sleep routine.

At 6 months she started laughing a lot more, and now she smiles and laughs and reaches for us both equally.

All that to say, I feel like I EARNED this from her, thru being consistently attentive primary care giver. Her dad is naturally goofy and energetic,, and I feel like playing came so easily to him, and it was natural.

I am scared that once she goes to daycare, she’s going to go back to stone face no smiles for me.

I am also feeling so much guilt for putting her in daycare sooner - I initially thought Id stay with her until 14-16 months. But I am finding more and more these days, I cant wait to start working again.

Anyone have insight into this? How was your bond with baby after daycare? Did it change?

Hoping to hear goood stories of return to work, daycare before 1 and just overall moms finding themselves again after having a bit of help thru extra childcare.