Lesbian and comparing
Hello, so I am 33 and recently started finding myself comparing my life to friends and people around me. I am now starting to get invited to weddings and most of the people around me are straight and are starting families.
I am really struggling with the feeling of loneliness as i am currently single. I am going on dates, recently started talking to a woman, went on a date and had a first kiss which is looking good as I have really started to step back and say "what type of woman do i want to be with" rather than just being with them because they also like women.
Now i am having two thoughts in my mind, the connection with this new woman is not going fast enough, due to go on another date but not heard anything from them. I want to not push and make it easy (to some extent) but meaningful enough so i know it's going somewhere.
How do you navigate this "not comparing" mindset and how do you work on being ok with being single so you can remain calm when starting to date or get to know someone?