Going onsite to a customer and I have nothing to wear
Hi! (cross posted with lymphedema) Im (53, F) tearing up while writing this because I have felt so alone and so hopeless for the past 10 years or more. I can't wait until I have some time to read through all of the posts! I was diagnosed with lymphedema on the left side of my body and lipedema all over about four years ago. I was given some exercises to massage and I already had a pump that I bought off of Amazon. I brought it into PT and she showed me how to use it. All of my many medical professionals basically told me to lose weight. Ok, got it. (easier said that done). Anyway, I started a GLP-1 in January and I'm down 75 pounds so far. I have another 75 before I can have any kind of skin surgery. (245 cw)
But guys.... I still can't look in a mirror. I still can't wear jeans that fit. My left leg is almost 2" in diameter larger than my right. My calves (both) and giant sausage rolls. I know I shouldn't speak badly about myself but... Im stared at in public. Its so embarrassing. I can't wear long dresses because dresses don't cover the "cankles". I can't wear jeans because they are so tight at the calves and quads and super loose at the waist. I have nothing to wear and I have to go onsite to a customer on 08/24-25. Im in a panic. I haven't been onsite with a customer in YEARS. Heck, I avoid outside because Im embarrassed. I know a lot of it is BD but I really don't know what to wear. You should see the disappointment when people meet me. Now, that I have seen all my life. I sound super cute and young on the phone and guys flirt with me all the time. I try to keep it professional but they always push the boundaries. Then imagine when I come rolling in onsite. Then they do the up-down and get to my legs then they just stare. And I'm not overthinking it. I was in line iwth my son at his graduation. I wore super baggy flowy yoga pants with a long sweater. But you could still see the fat pockets at my knees and my legs rubs together even at the knees when I walk. Anyway, this lady ahead of us turned around, did the up-down and stopped at the knees. She kept turning around and staring at my knees. I was dying inside. I was looking at her waiting for... something? I don't know. Anyway, I finally asked if I could help her with something. She jumped and looked up at me, mumbled something and turned back around. UGH. Even if it wasn't about the fat or if she was lost in a memory, it still wouldn't have happened if she couldn't see them.
Ok, enough. Sorry about that. I guess my question is what do women wear when they need to be business casual and they need to go to a Machine Shop and they have huge legs. Sorry for the novel but Im sad, alone, can't enjoy the weight loss because I'm still having issues with my legs, and Im hopeless. Any advice?
