u/ExtremeVideo1894

I’m 17, about to graduate from high school, and I have absolutely no idea what I want to be. It’s a terrible feeling. I don’t even know what I should be aiming for right now. Money? Happiness? Should I just be a hedonist?

Why should I even care? I often feel disconnected, like I’m just passing by, and in 60 years or so, I’ll be gone anyway. Should I really care about what I do with that time, or what kind of legacy I leave behind?

Growing up, my dad was pretty wealthy. I got to experience the kind of riches a lot of people spend their whole lives chasing, and honestly... it’s not really any better than what I have now.

So, what is the point of it all? How did you guys find your purpose, or at least figure out what to aim for?

I feel like I'm going insane. I don't want to be that guy but mechanically I genuinely feel like I'm better than most of the people I play with and against, yet I can't win games and I have no idea why.

I'm not sure if the problem is that I'm not bringing enough value to the team, or if it's more of a role issue. I mostly play duelist and I feel like I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do, but my team just isn't capitalizing off of what I create. It gets frustrating because I feel like I'm carrying the early work and nothing comes from it.

I've been thinking about switching to a calmer role like senti or controller because at least then my impact would be more consistent and less reliant on my team following up. But honestly I don't even know if that's the real issue. I genuinely have no clue what's holding me back and it's driving me crazy.

I feel like I'm going insane. I don't want to be that guy but mechanically I genuinely feel like I'm better than most of the people I play with and against, yet I can't win games and I have no idea why.

I'm not sure if the problem is that I'm not bringing enough value to the team, or if it's more of a role issue. I mostly play duelist and I feel like I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do, but my team just isn't capitalizing off of what I create. It gets frustrating because I feel like I'm carrying the early work and nothing comes from it.

I've been thinking about switching to a calmer role like senti or controller because at least then my impact would be more consistent and less reliant on my team following up. But honestly I don't even know if that's the real issue. I genuinely have no clue what's holding me back and it's driving me crazy.