Hey I’m 21 and am looking for my first real boyfriend. I’ve decided that it’s time to grow up and stop dating women and learn how to serve a man. I am FtM I’ve been on hormones for just under 8 years. I am masculine with a more feminine body Anyone up to talk? Hmu
Hey, I’m 21 from the USA and I honestly don’t even know how to start this.
I was born female but started transitioning around 13/14 and have been on hormones since then. My sexuality has felt all over the place for most of my life and lately it’s been hitting me harder than ever.
When I was really young I liked guys. Then around middle school I became way more interested in girls. In high school, feelings toward guys started creeping back in again, but I always pushed them away or ignored them. I’ve only seriously dated girls and I’ve been with my current girlfriend for 5+ years.
The problem is… throughout those years, I keep going through periods where I cannot stop thinking about men. Every single time it comes back stronger. It’s gotten to the point where I fantasize about it constantly and it’s becoming harder to convince myself to ignore it.
Part of me feels guilty because I’m in a long-term relationship, but another part of me feels like I’m repressing something important about myself and it’s eating at me mentally. I feel pulled toward exploring this side of myself in a way I can’t really explain anymore.
What also makes this confusing is I feel like I don’t fully fit anywhere socially either. Most of my friends have always been women, but I’m also somewhat masculine and I’ve never really felt like I “found my people.”
I guess I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar — especially people who realized their attraction later, repressed it, or struggled with sexuality after transitioning. How did you figure out what was real vs temporary curiosity?
Hey, I’m 21 from the USA and I honestly don’t even know how to start this.
I was born female but started transitioning around 13/14 and have been on hormones since then. My sexuality has felt all over the place for most of my life and lately it’s been hitting me harder than ever.
When I was really young I liked guys. Then around middle school I became way more interested in girls. In high school, feelings toward guys started creeping back in again, but I always pushed them away or ignored them. I’ve only seriously dated girls and I’ve been with my current girlfriend for 5+ years.
The problem is… throughout those years, I keep going through periods where I cannot stop thinking about men. Every single time it comes back stronger. It’s gotten to the point where I fantasize about it constantly and it’s becoming harder to convince myself to ignore it.
Part of me feels guilty because I’m in a long-term relationship, but another part of me feels like I’m repressing something important about myself and it’s eating at me mentally. I feel pulled toward exploring this side of myself in a way I can’t really explain anymore.
What also makes this confusing is I feel like I don’t fully fit anywhere socially either. Most of my friends have always been women, but I’m also somewhat masculine and I’ve never really felt like I “found my people.”
I guess I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar — especially people who realized their attraction later, repressed it, or struggled with sexuality after transitioning. How did you figure out what was real vs temporary curiosity?
Hey I’m 21 and am looking for my first real boyfriend. I’ve decided that it’s time to grow up and stop dating women and learn how to serve a man. I am FtM I’ve been on hormones for just under 8 years. I am masculine with a more feminine body Anyone up to talk? Hmu