Am i the only guys with that ?
I'm 20 years old, I've had all kinds of OCD: homosexuality OCD, pedophilia OCD, counting words in sentences, existential OCD, and now I'm experiencing something else, and I'm not sure if it's OCD because I can't find anyone else with this theme. I know that what matters isn't the theme of the obsession itself, but the mechanism of the OCD.
To put it simply, I was at work and I had an intrusive thought when my colleague told me she would be doing the accounting entry for the purchase invoices. I had the feeling she was saying that to work more than me and basically try to take my place, knowing that she hasn't been with the company for very long (that's how the thought was). At the time, it created enormous anxiety, and I'm constantly analyzing her tone of voice because I feel like she's being hypocritical, and so I'm constantly afraid that she's not being honest in her conversations, which is entirely possible, by the way.
Maybe I just have a good instinct, except it creates anxiety in me about the possibility of paranoia, and so it makes me doubt my colleague's intentions. It's anxiety-inducing, and it used to happen with my father too. I'd have intrusive thoughts telling me that when he said something, he was lying, and so my anxiety would rise, and I'd analyze everything, and I'd even wonder if the thought I had wasn't a little paranoid.
What intrigues me is that people with OCD have thoughts that touch on their moral values, and they can be afraid of their own intentions, but I haven't met anyone who was afraid of other people's intentions.
And as these thoughts kept coming, well, I really felt like they could be true. I feel like it changes my perception of reality.