This was a vanilla egg white pancake. I’d rate it a 5/10. I might try it again as a fast way to get in my protein but probably not. I could barely taste the flavor which I think is because of the “pancake” being unbearably dry. The inside texture is nothing sort of a pancake
I’ve been depressed my entire life for as far as I can remember because of everyone I ever cared about hurting me which ended up shaping my mind against me. I fell into depression and became the worst version of myself. Their actions and words fueled me to change myself and I started the gym. I was a skinny kid and all I wanted was to get bigger.
Fast forward to today, I’m big and strong however I have a pretty good amount of fat to lose. Losing the fat felt surreal to me because I felt like I was converting back into the skinny loser I was then. I turned to God and have been relying on him more lately and he made me realize that there was nothing wrong with me back then, I was just depressed. I remembered that the happiest moments of my life was when I was I was improving my physique. This has fueled me to get lean by working hard and no extreme measures that I began with like water fasting or 500 calories everyday.
Unfortunately, I don’t think I’ll ever think like the happy innocent kid I was back then but I’m ok with that. Right now, I’m only focused on the gym, my relationship with God, and battling my depression day by day; not what I was focused on before: people pleasing and “finding love”. I’m definitely not where I want to be at but I can finally say I feel fulfilled in my own skin; I feel like my true self. Sure, the road is still bumpy most days, but I’m handling things now instead of letting life control me and I’m completely fine with that. This is God’s plan for me.
I guess I just want to inspire others to reallyyyyy seek out God to overcome whatever you’re going through because all things are possible through him.
PS: I’ve never even made a post this personal so I’ll just see how it goes