What to do next
I can’t sleep and I don’t even know why I’m writing this here. Maybe because I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about this.
Lately I feel emotionally detached from everyone. I wasn’t always like this. I used to feel things deeply, but now it feels like I’ve reached some kind of saturation point where I can’t properly feel emotions anymore. It’s like I’m just existing and moving through days on autopilot.
I’m only 24, but lately it feels like I’ve completely lost hope in life. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore or where I’m even heading. Nothing really interests me. Things that used to make me happy don’t feel the same anymore. Even when people care, I feel distant. Even when good things happen, I feel nothing.
I’ve also noticed changes in myself that honestly scare me. I used to be a very sensitive person, but now I feel like I’ve lost part of that. I struggle to feel empathy the way I used to. I find it hard to appreciate the things people do for me, even when I know they care. I hate admitting this, but sometimes I feel like I’ve developed an “I don’t care” attitude toward everything and everyone, and that doesn’t feel like me at all.
The worst part is that I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I keep waiting to feel like myself again, but every day I just feel more disconnected. I feel tired mentally, emotionally, and honestly… I’m scared that this version of me is becoming permanent.
Sometimes I even question myself and wonder if what I’m feeling is actually real, or if I’m somehow imagining it, pretending, or making it bigger in my head. I genuinely don’t know anymore.
Has anyone gone through something like this? Is this emotional numbness, burnout, depression, or just a temporary phase? I just feel lost and I don’t know how to get myself back.