u/Familiar-Care-5025

Im 18 and have very sensitive emotions. My son will be born any day now and his dad is moving to Cali soon after hes born. How do you guys cope with 50/50 coparenting plans? I know its going to destroy me not knowing whats going on, the idea that maybe my son will like being over there more and my house will be the torture one? What am I supposed to do while hes gone? How do I js be okay letting him go with people that I myself dont like or trust for so long? Its eating me up and hes not even born yet!

Im 39 weeks and 1 day exactly today, and ive had like no signs of labor besides me feeling some heavy peliv pain and pressure from him dropping, last appointment she said I was at a 2. When did you guys go into labor and what was it like??

So im 18 and 38 weeks pregnant. I have not had an easy pregnancy and have been very angry and hateful and mena to everyone and everything around me. Like beyond the normal. I am on Lurasidone 20mg and ive been trying to chnage my thinking about things in life. Which has helped. One thing I really have struggled with is accepting help bc I never wanted to admit I needed it so I would get angry and be mean about it so people would stop so I would be forced to do everything myself. But recently ive been calming myself down telling myself nothing bad if I get help and that I dont want to spend my life an angry and hated bitter person. But these thoughts have js snowballed into everytime I feel anything all I feel is "of i died tomorrow which is possible would i be happy with how im about to handle this situation" and it fills me with anxiety. I get it a lot with my sons dad who im not with and dont have a good relationship with. Hes moving to Cali so we cant be together. We get along and want to be together but we also have such small amounts of trust in each other and I have a habit or snapping on him. While these thoughts have stopped me from snapping on him, it causes me to have that anxiety of wasting of life and not being happy if I were to die. Why am I wasting my life loving someone I cant be with and will be living 6 hours away from? I dont feel completely loved and like I can trust him so I deserve to move on and find a better love for myself. But also I dont want to waste life trying to move on when im perfectly happy (most of the time) with him even if we aren't together. I dont know. Js anxious all the time over stupid things.