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Around the time we started having small arguments more often, we gradually began to drift apart. He got tired of my behavior, and eventually his feelings for me faded. At that time, I was going through a really difficult period, and he had just started a new job, so I honestly think neither of us had much emotional energy to give.
After one of our fights, when we made up, it felt like he was genuinely trying again, and I was trying too. During that period, though, he seemed a little distant. A couple of times I told him, “If you want to break up, I’ll be okay. If you’re only staying with me out of kindness and forcing yourself to be here, it’s okay.” But he would only reply with things like, “No, it’s okay, don’t worry,” or “When you keep saying that, it sounds like you’re the one who wants to break up.” Because of that, I didn’t choose to end the relationship.
About a week and a half later, I couldn’t handle how much his attitude had changed, so I asked him, “Do you still love me?” At first he hesitated, but when I asked him to give me a clear answer, he said, “No.” So I said, “Then I guess this is the end.” He replied, “Probably.” I told him, “No, It’s not probably.” Then he said, “So for sure.”
I told him that I still thought we could be together and that I still wanted to be with him. I asked, “Don’t you even want to try one more time?” He said, “I tried, but I couldn’t do anything. I don’t want to try anymore.”
So I thanked him for everything, and he thanked me too.
After that, I blocked his contact information. But the next day, I couldn’t help myself and sent him a message saying, “I’m sorry for contacting you out of nowhere, but I still want to be with you.” He hasn’t replied yet, and now I’m waiting for an answer.
What do you think he’s thinking right now?
Sorry, English isn’t my first language.

At first, I missed him so much it was unbearable, but little by little, I started getting frustrated with how inconsiderate and dishonest he is

He loved me so much, and I thought he would love me forever. Of course, deep down, I knew nothing lasts forever, but I never expected his feelings to change this quickly.
He always told me, “I’m not going anywhere.” He said it over and over again. So honestly, I wasn’t prepared for this.
What was all of that, then? Wasn’t he supposed to keep loving me no matter what? Wasn’t he supposed to stay?
Why did he make me believe that? If this was how it was going to end, maybe I should never have trusted those words in the first place.

started drifting apart after a series of small arguments. He grew tired of my behavior and eventually lost feelings for me. Around the same time, I was going through a difficult period, and he had just started a new job, so it’s true that neither of us had much emotional space.
After we made up from one of our fights, I think he was trying to put in effort again, and I was trying too. But about a week and a half later, I couldn’t stand how different his attitude had become. I asked him whether he still loved me, and told him that if he didn’t, it would be better for us to break up since the situation was too painful for me.
He hesitated at first when I asked him, but when I pushed for an answer, he said “no.” So I told him, “So we’re done.” He replied “probably,” and I said “No it’s not probably “Then he said, “So for sure.”
When I told him I thought we would stay together longer and that I still wanted to be with him, I asked if he didn’t even want to try again. He said he had tried but couldn’t do anything, and that he didn’t want to anymore. So I thanked him for everything, and he replied as well.
After that, I blocked his contact. But the next day, I couldn’t hold it in and texted him saying, “Sorry for suddenly messaging you, but I still want to be with you.” He hasn’t replied yet, and I’m currently waiting for his response.
What is he thinking right now? Is it possible that he will never reply at all? At this point, does his answer seem like a “no” too?
Sorry, English isn’t my first language.