used to think i was FTM and sometimes miss the feeling of being a guy
So, i used to think i felt like a boy as the title says. I cut my hair short into a mullet, dressed masculine and acted masculine as much as i could online or irl. I sometimes got adressed as a guy and that made me feel happy. But now i'm pretty sure it was just teenage hormones (I AM NOT SAYING THAT IS YOUR CASE TOO IF YOU'RE A TRANSGENDER TEENAGER). Now about 2 years later i feel comfortable being a girl, i embrace my chest, hips etc but i sometimes really miss how i used to look like a guy. It's like sometimes I just want to chop all my hair off again and dress masculine, other times i don't so if i would cut my hair I'd probably cry about it at those times. I don't associate myself with being genderfuild etc. I'm just confused on why i feel this way. Until a year age i even still adressed myself as a boy sometimes with my online friends. I'm sorry if this post doesn't belong in this reddit community as i don't call myself FTM anymore but some advice would be cool.
My best guess is just puberty messing with me? I wouldn't in any way want to feel what i felt back then anymore though. I was in a very bad mental state.