Confusing ex
So like i’ve talk about this before on here. I had explained that i (21F) got broken up with in February by my ex (21M) due to just so much happening. We’ve had month where we went no contact and every time we do, he always reaches out to me. He tried to beg for me back in March and then the same week that he did he ended up meeting a girl and they started talking and I genuinely went into a state of psychosis so I blocked him on everything and then after some time I unblocked him because I felt he wasn’t gonna reach out. Well, I was wrong because then towards the end of June he texted me and then we blocked each other again and then he did it again towards the end of August and we have not been in no contact since then. We’ve had days where we didn’t talk for like a week and then he would text me again and he told me he just needed clarity but he hasn’t really stopped texting me since then and we’ve met up a total of four times already since August and he keeps telling me that he loves and misses me and that he wants everything to be a dream and to wake up with each other again and that he wishes we never broke up so on so forth, but then when I try to have a conversation with him about everything and I tell him that I wanna try to make it work he becomes avoidant and it looks like I’m the one chasing him. And it’s frustrating because it’s almost like he’s love bombing me and breadcrumbing me and I genuinely don’t know why because I wanna move on from everything that happened and I wanna be happy like I genuinely think it could work again but like I don’t know like I said, he just keeps being really avoidant and it’s really hard. The message is just kind of what our conversations look like. I know that probably looks bad on my end but like every time I tell him I wanna stop talking or try to block him. He tells me no and that he doesn’t want me to, but then won’t even put the effort to have an adult conversation with me. Like I just genuinely don’t know what to think anymore and what to do. I miss him a ton and I want things to work out. It also sucks because with the girl he met in March, he lied to me about her time and time again and now he’s got a new job and there’s this girl that he said to me last night that “she’s mad at me” and I said why and he told me it was because she thinks that he doesn’t like her and then I said why would she be mad about that if she has a boyfriend? Most guys wouldn’t even let their girlfriends have male friends like that so it’s a little suspicious to me. I think he is considering her as a romantic partner, but I can’t tell whether or not he’s lying because he’s lied about stuff like this before. I just want answers. I just want to know if he’s telling the truth like I just I need answers. I told him that if he’s considering her as a romantic partner then I’ll step back and I’ll be fine with it, but I’m not doing the whole thing he didn’t march again. And he told me “ she has a boyfriend” and I said that it’s a little suspicious to be acting like that with a male friend when you have a whole boyfriend like why is she worried and blowing up your phone because she thinks you don’t like her? Like she called him three times I’m pretty sure when we hung out the other night like why is she blowing up your phone? You know it’s a little suspicious to me? Sorry I’m ranting now lol! But I just I need perspective😭