u/Femnesia

[TW!!! mods said sooo]

for the record, im 14MTF, i was just studying while pulling an all nighter around 4 am of 1 june, i was on phone using google and studying and stuff, thats when mum came into my room and ofc a terrible moment to be seen by parents while youre on your phone at 4 am, mum took my phone and went to wake up dad, i didnt really care until dad came in asking "were you scrolling on youtube?" i was like "no? i was studying" and thats when mum came in all serious and shit and asked me, "lemme get one thing clear.. are you sure youre not gay or trans stuff" like someone would react i said "wth mom, you keep bringing up that incident, there is nothing like this" to explain the "incident" was my chats with my ex boyfriend being caught my parents and they found out i was gay at that time. its been 10 months since that i have managed to convince them im not gay, now then mum said "tell me honestly if youre something or stuff, if yes then me and your dad will eat poison and die, we dont want to be parents of a disgrace", and i was said "whattt????, im not something like what are you saying mom???" then she was like "dont you dare do something like that or we will kill ourselves"..

and some might say that i should leave them once i get old but i cant.., they did so much for me and sacrificed for me, heck they bought what i wanted just today around 200$ worth stuff and its not like they hate me but they are too transphobic and homophobic, i dont know what to do, how to be trans when they wont let me? i saw all my future plans breaking down yesterday, everything i wanted to do just went down the drain, i dont know what to do, how will be myself? they were talking bout my future wife and how theyll take care of her, and here im feeling guilty about how ill destroy their dreams, idk what to say, im just so fucked

for the record, im 14MTF, i was just studying while pulling an all nighter around 4 am of 1 june, i was on phone using google and studying and stuff, thats when mum came into my room and ofc a terrible moment to be seen by parents while youre on your phone at 4 am, mum took my phone and went to wake up dad, i didnt really care until dad came in asking "were you scrolling on youtube?" i was like "no? i was studying" and thats when mum came in all serious and shit and asked me, "lemme get one thing clear.. are you sure youre not gay or trans stuff" like someone would react i said "wth mom, you keep bringing up that incident, there is nothing like this" to explain the "incident" was my chats with my ex boyfriend being caught my parents and they found out i was gay at that time. its been 10 months since that i have managed to convince them im not gay, now then mum said "tell me honestly if youre something or stuff, if yes then me and your dad will eat poison and die, we dont want to be parents of a disgrace", and i was said "whattt????, im not something like what are you saying mom???" then she was like "dont you dare do something like that or we will kill ourselves"..

and some might say that i should leave them once i get old but i cant.., they did so much for me and sacrificed for me, heck they bought what i wanted just today around 200$ worth stuff and its not like they hate me but they are too transphobic and homophobic, i dont know what to do, how to be trans when they wont let me? i saw all my future plans breaking down yesterday, everything i wanted to do just went down the drain, i dont know what to do, how will be myself? they were talking bout my future wife and how theyll take care of her, and here im feeling guilty about how ill destroy their dreams, idk what to say, im just so fucked

for the record, im 14MTF, i was just studying while pulling an all nighter around 4 am of 1 june, i was on phone using google and studying and stuff, thats when mum came into my room and ofc a terrible moment to be seen by parents while youre on your phone at 4 am, mum took my phone and went to wake up dad, i didnt really care until dad came in asking "were you scrolling on youtube?" i was like "no? i was studying" and thats when mum came in all serious and shit and asked me, "lemme get one thing clear.. are you sure youre not gay or trans stuff" like someone would react i said "wth mom, you keep bringing up that incident, there is nothing like this" to explain the "incident" was my chats with my ex boyfriend being caught my parents and they found out i was gay at that time. its been 10 months since that i have managed to convince them im not gay, now then mum said "tell me honestly if youre something or stuff, if yes then me and your dad will eat poison and die, we dont want to be parents of a disgrace", and i was said "whattt????, im not something like what are you saying mom???" then she was like "dont you dare do something like that or we will kill ourselves"..

and some might say that i should leave them once i get old but i cant.., they did so much for me and sacrificed for me, heck they bought what i wanted just today around 200$ worth stuff and its not like they hate me but they are too transphobic and homophobic, i dont know what to do, how to be trans when they wont let me? i saw all my future plans breaking down yesterday, everything i wanted to do just went down the drain, i dont know what to do, how will be myself? they were talking bout my future wife and how theyll take care of her, and here im feeling guilty about how ill destroy their dreams, idk what to say, im just so fucked

for the record, im 14MTF, i was just studying while pulling an all nighter around 4 am of 1 june, i was on phone using google and studying and stuff, thats when mum came into my room and ofc a terrible moment to be seen by parents while youre on your phone at 4 am, mum took my phone and went to wake up dad, i didnt really care until dad came in asking "were you scrolling on youtube?" i was like "no? i was studying" and thats when mum came in all serious and shit and asked me, "lemme get one thing clear.. are you sure youre not gay or trans stuff" like someone would react i said "wth mom, you keep bringing up that incident, there is nothing like this" to explain the "incident" was my chats with my ex boyfriend being caught my parents and they found out i was gay at that time. its been 10 months since that i have managed to convince them im not gay, now then mum said "tell me honestly if youre something or stuff, if yes then me and your dad will eat poison and die, we dont want to be parents of a disgrace", and i was said "whattt????, im not something like what are you saying mom???" then she was like "dont you dare do something like that or we will kill ourselves"..

and some might say that i should leave them once i get old but i cant.., they did so much for me and sacrificed for me, heck they bought what i wanted just today around 200$ worth stuff and its not like they hate me but they are too transphobic and homophobic, i dont know what to do, how to be trans when they wont let me? i saw all my future plans breaking down yesterday, everything i wanted to do just went down the drain, i dont know what to do, how will be myself? they were talking bout my future wife and how theyll take care of her, and here im feeling guilty about how ill destroy their dreams, idk what to say, im just so fucked