I’m new here and could really use some perspective. Back in December 2024, I met an incredible girl online. We officially started dating in February 2025, and while things were good, I’ll be honest about my past. I’d ended things with two girls before her simply because I lost interest.
By June, those same doubts hit me again. It wasn't her because she was amazing, but the pressure of my drop year and the distance just got to me, so I broke up with her. I felt massive guilt afterward and spent months reflecting on my mistakes. By October, I had genuinely changed. We got back together, and this time, I was all in. She was hesitant at first because of our history, which I totally understood, but we eventually found our rhythm again.
The unique thing is that we have only ever met online and haven't met in person yet, but the connection is incredibly deep. My family knows everything and they have no problem with us, but the situation at her home is the exact opposite. Her parents caught her talking to me three times between October and April. Because I’m Hindu and she’s Christian, they are firmly against us. She tried to manage things secretly, but the pressure has become unbearable for her. She feels breaking up is the only option right now.
We still talk secretly sometimes because the love is still there, but she’s exhausted from the hiding. She’s been very clear that she doesn't know what the future holds, and she isn't giving me any false hope. She says this because she doesn't want me to end up getting hurt all over again later on.
Even though she isn't making promises, I’ve decided to wait. I don’t want to move on or find a replacement. I want to use this year to heal and work on myself. We’re hoping to reconnect next year, maybe January or July, and finally meet in person to see where we stand. I know waiting might not be the smartest move, but she’s special, and I’m not ready to let go of that
TL;DR: I'm in a deep online relationship with a girl I've never met IRL. My family supports us, but her parents are against it due to religious differences. We've decided to break up for now because of the pressure, and she isn't giving me any hope for the future to protect me, but I've decided to wait a year to work on myself and try again when things settle.