u/Few_Morning_6303

you will never read this but just know that losing you has absolutely destroyed me. gutted me. decimated my sanity. obliterated all common sense. ps this is a letter about my platonic best friend. I know no one will see this but a friendship break up is worse than a romantic one. I sit here hugging the books you gave me. sobbing into the pages hoping to find a scribble or a couple of words you may have written when you gifted them to me on my birthday. I clutch an old copy of the fault in our stars close to my heart and sob. it's been five months and I still cry. not cry. weep. I lament over the loss of you. I hate you so much but I still care so much. the sound of your laugh is a knife driven through my heart because I know you are either laughing at me or at something said about me. I am utterly ruined. call me dramatic but I thought I would never lose you. perhaps I will get over it. but right now. I cry and cry. its may and you haven't left my head yet. I become overly attentive when you are near. every word you say softly to make sure I dont hear it. I feel empty. how could you. why are you okay. why am I not. this is so dramatic. I am wearing an old ring of yours. I dont think I will ever remove it. I hope you never realise it's yours. I dont want to inflate your ego. what do I do ribs. I cant breathe. I hate this so fucking much.

hey guys 20f was once upon a time fit as a fiddle and super into fitness but after boards and some mental health problems I lost a lot of my will to do things that actually matter so I sort of lost my self. I was a state level basketball player and really into gym but yeah I lost all of that progress over a couple of months of consistent binge eating and I regret it. I finally noticed how full my face has become and I just miss strength training a lot. I have no discipline. every time I try I end up quitting but today I noticed stretch marks on my hips and I am genuinely terrified. how can I tone up. I dont want to be thin no offence to anybody I just love having muscle and feeling strong. I want to do something for myself. any advice or tips?

Hi there! There’s a medium sized white dog near my coaching and she’s such a sweetie. She has tons of ticks like a lot of them and i am not sure how to give her a bath. She’s fed daily and taken care of but the ticks are a lot now even near her eyes. So how do i go about it? Was planning on taking her to my house and doing the needful but i don’t know how to go about it. Any suggestions??

I’m 18F and I’ve never written a post before, but I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.

I used to have a very close friend (18M), let’s call him Tanay, who was dating my cousin (17F). Me and Tanay had been super close for almost 3 years.

After my farewell, there was a party and I got extremely drunk. I thought I had only had a little vodka, but the chaser he gave me was way stronger than I realized and I got completely wasted. Only a few people were there. My best friend was sober, and Tanay kept insisting that he would take care of me.

He took me into a room and shut the door. My best friend started banging on the door and opened it. I honestly don’t remember much after that because I spent the rest of the night throwing up.

The next day, Tanay called me and told me that we kissed. I freaked out because he was literally dating my cousin, so I immediately told her. He denied it at first, so I tried to move on.

A few days later, at my cousin’s party, he suddenly told her that we had made out, grinded, etc. I was genuinely shocked. Then everything blew up. Me and my cousin fought, me and Tanay fought, and everyone comforted my cousin because she “got cheated on,” while nobody cared that I was blackout drunk and probably taken advantage of.

After that, rumors started spreading everywhere about me having sex, condoms, and all kinds of stuff that wasn’t true. I became extremely introverted and depressed. I’m in therapy now, but at the time I completely lost the ability to socialize.

I had 3 really close friends, including my best friend, let’s call her Tara. At first Tara stayed close to me, but eventually my other two close friends became close to Tanay too. One of them basically replaced me in his life, so I cut them off.

Then Tara started acting weird too. Around that time I got a boyfriend, and after a few months Tara would constantly post stories with our other friends and exclude me. The whole friend group would hang out without inviting me. It made me feel horrible.

Eventually Tara completely cut me off. We stopped talking and it genuinely broke me because she was like a sister to me. I got even more depressed, stopped eating properly, isolated myself, and started sitting alone in coaching because apparently people were telling everyone that I was toxic and a bad friend.

Now I’m completely alone. Tara and the other girls are all super close now and I still feel stuck in the same place. I can’t study properly anymore, I gained a lot of weight, I feel ugly all the time, and honestly I just feel like a failure.

I don’t even want to be friends with Tara again, but I still miss her. I’m also so tired of nobody ever taking my side in any of this that I’ve started feeling like maybe I really am the villain.