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Guys I’ve been into spirituality and all that stuff for a while now. Recently I stumbled across this idea of “peeking behind the curtain” of reality and I can’t stop thinking about it.

There’s just something in me that desperately wants to see beyond this reality, the “matrix”, ego, society, whatever you wanna call it. Like there’s something deeper hidden behind all of this and I wanna understand it…🧍‍♀️

Has anyone here actually experienced that feeling or made it there in some way? Did it actually change you or just confuse you more?🥲🤔 (And ofc how😵‍💫)

I’ve been thinking a lot about the idea that “reality is an illusion”, like the idea that reality tries to make you believe it’s creating you, instead of you creating it.

I understand the concept, but I’m trying to learn how people actually embody it in daily life.

Like… how do you wake up in the morning and genuinely feel or see that reality is an illusion? What changes in your perception? What do you actually do with that ???
Like how do people “see through” the illusion without using psychedelics (😛) People talk about awakening, seeing beyond the matrix, ego death, etc.
I’m just tryna know…
How do you experience this idea instead of just understanding it as a concept?

I started noticing stuff that I can’t really ignore anymore.

Everything feels lowkey performative. Not in a super obvious fake way, but more like people are just doing things because that’s what everyone does. Like with celebrity drama, trends, random stuff online people get SO into it, reacting, judging, posting about it. And I be thinking: why does this matter that much?

Same with relationships. I’m not trying to judge, but it feels like a lot of people don’t really care about real connection like that. It’s more like jumping from one person to the next. And I don’t get if people just don’t care, or if they never really felt something deeper in the first place.🤨
And even with friends, I’ve been distancing myself a bit because conversations just feel repetitive. Like we’re saying the same things over and over, just different day. It doesn’t feel real sometimes, more like a pattern. Idk, sometimes I notice people talk so much bs it’s a surprise that they don’t think about their words. (Not trying to be mean but it gives me a headache sometimes🧍‍♀️)

Yeah but I feel like there’s something behind all of this, like some kind of pattern or reason, but I can’t fully figure it out. It feels like it’s right there but I just can’t see it clearly yet.🧐

Where do you guys actually get your knowledge from?

I’m talking about like good YouTube channels, books or smth like podcasts. I Would appreciate any recommendations. 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

I’ve been getting more into spirituality (obvy), meditation, and just questioning life in general (like meaning, future, all that). And I’ve noticed something kind of weird happening.

I feel like I’m slowly becoming more alone.

Not in a dramatic way, just… I don’t connect the same with people anymore. It’s like my mindset is shifting and a lot of the people around me just don’t really align with how I see things or where I feel like I’m going.

I’ve also started noticing really small things more, how people react, how they talk, especially how negative some conversations are. And it feels like they don’t even realize it.

At the same time, I care way less about what people think of me now, which is good I guess. But sometimes I feel like I’m just there, like an awareness almost? Like a ghost just observing everything and everyone LOOL this scarry…

Also just to be clear, it’s not a “me vs them” thing at all. I don’t think I’m better than anyone or anything like that. And I’m not even really scared of losing friends tbh, I just hope this isn’t me slowly isolating myself without realizing it.

Has anyone else gone through something like this? 🙃🙃🙃 is that normal 😭😭 will I have new friends LOL