Title is the question.
I'd assume it's illegal in a lot of countries but (1) I don't know that the Church cares and (2) I wouldn't be surprised if missionaries have to waive their privacy protections for postal stuff given the fact that they have no privacy anywhere else in their lives.
Sorry, I know 0L posts are annoying.
I'm applying to law school in the fall and trying to decide what schools to target. My GPA is above almost every school's median in the country and LSAT is in the high 170s, so I could probably get into a bunch of T14s and monster-sized scholarships at lower-ranked schools where biglaw isn't really an option but I could graduate debt free or close to that.
I've been working as a litigation paralegal for a while and probably want to do something along those lines.
My main problem is that I'm extremely socially awkward. I don't talk to people well, get super embarrassed by minor mistakes, stutter a lot, say as few words as possible, often come off as passive aggressive or condescending when I'm trying not to, am overly blunt, interview terribly, refuse to put an ounce of alcohol in my body, etc. I've been trying to work on it over the last few years and am making minimal progress.
I'm a workaholic (because I have no social life nor any desire to have one lol) and more than willing to sit in an office and grind for 60 hours a week, but I don't know if that's what type of personality is needed for this career.
I'm just asking this because I'm trying to figure out if shooting for a top school and going into insane debt is worth it. I don't want to structure my life plans around a certain career only to realize it's fundamentally incongruous with my personality.
Vandy waitlist email screenshot attached. Isn't showing up for some reason.
I have a job requires me to get up around 6AM most days and is pretty cognitively challenging. I've been living on the energy drinks I have on the drive to work in the morning.
I get home around 6PM and can't nap afterwards, no matter how hard I try. I've taken melatonin and Benadryl and it doesn't help at all. My psychiatrist has literally prescribed antipsychotics because they make you sleepy and it still doesn't work.
I've been trying to go to bed around 9PM most days. I was laying here with my eyes shut, tossing and turning for about four hours. I gave up a few minutes ago and think this is going to be an involuntary all-nighter.
I've been getting about 2000-3000 steps per day. I do not have the time (family) nor energy to exercise because I always feel so tired that going for a run would probably make me drop dead.
I'm mildly underweight, male, and in my twenties. I probably eat in the realm of 1600 calories per day (I know it's not enough but I just haven't had an appetite since the insomnia started). My diet is otherwise relatively normal and not unhealthy.
I've never gotten a ton of sleep (usually 6-7 hours because, again, my body won't let me), but the issue didn't get this bad until the last couple of weeks.
I have a history of severe mental health issues and it's getting worse by the day again.
I have a constant headache. It's worse on the days I get <4 hours, which is most at this point.
Anyone else have a similar experience? Is it possible to get this to stop? I don't know how I can keep living like this.
EDIT: I got about two hours. Better than expected. I'm going to try coffee instead of Celsius this morning and see if it works.
