u/Firm_Pickle7132

I thought I was doing okay, then I started ripping out my hair, tearing my nails and trying to yank them off, digging at my face until I bleed, and I can't stop

Every day the feeling gets stronger, I'm trying to repair them with oils and creams but then I'm digging at them and tearing at them until I bleed

I don't know what to do I feel out of control I've never had these urges so strong before I feel like I'm spiraling

I tried fake nails but I tore them off within the first hour, biting and digging, pulling

I don't know what to do, does anyone know anything? I'll take anything, any advice, just to make it stop

I thought I was doing okay, then I started ripping out my hair, tearing my nails and trying to yank them off, digging at my face until I bleed, and I can't stop

Every day the feeling gets stronger, I'm trying to repair them with oils and creams but then I'm digging at them and tearing at them until I bleed

I don't know what to do I feel out of control I've never had these urges so strong before I feel like I'm spiraling

I tried fake nails but I tore them off within the first hour, biting and digging, pulling

I don't know what to do, does anyone know anything? I'll take anything, any advice, just to make it stop

I'm only 28 F, but for five years of my life I was isolated by my ex fiance and assaulted in every way every night. I can't even touch my own body without feeling my scars, my burns, his hands...I feel like I'll never trust another soul with my body again

I escaped him by literally grabbing my cat and running out the door to my car and driving the thirteen hours back to my family while he was working. I got away. He would've killed me, I know he would have, if I had stayed. He busted me up bad for those five years, 21-26. Two years out and I still can't breathe.

Sex is impossible, relationships are impossible, I don't want another soul near me ever again

Everyone around me still talks about how I just haven't found the right person, how sex makes a relationship, how in love they are with their significant others... They don't wake up screaming. They don't wake up hurting. Nobody around me gets it. I don't think I'll ever recover, and I can't come to terms with it

I just want to be okay, be okay with my body, but there is not one untouched inch. I feel broken. I feel ruined.

I don't know how to feel okay...How do I feel okay? Will I ever again, or did he ruin me? Am I broken? I don't want to ever be intimate again. Never again...I feel so broken.

I'm so sorry if I trigger anyone I'm just hurting and it's eating me alive