u/First-Communication7

Hi all, hope you guys are well

I'm on day 26 now and wow! It's been surprisingly easier than I thought. The first week was a bit tough just to break the habit bit it doesn't phase me now

Things I've noticed

-my bank balance seems to be steady now and i feel like I have money to spend on necessities

-much more time to spend with people i want to spend time with

-more time spent doing things i want instead of watching screens all day

-less anxiety and rollercoaster emotions

I've just been on holiday and once upon a time 80% of it would have been spent staring at gambling sites with the infamous '2 minutes im just checking something' and then the possibilityof a big bet wiping me out and ruining a whole week away.

This time I actually enjoyed myself.. no stress, no anxiety. How a holiday should be

I hope to get this done and dusted now

I've beat smoking, d***s, eating meat, alcoholism and it's think im about to kick this.

Those on the other end hold tight! I wish you all the best

Just try one day at a time!

Basically a movie about a guy who was either in the army or away from his home and he returns and his wife and kid/s are living there and he keeps seeing people snooping around outside and scaring his wife..

We later find out that the man is living in an abandoned house on his own (his wife and kid/s died) and he is living in a kind of delusional/ptsd state in the house and the people snooping are his neighbours who are worried about him

I think at the end the house sets on fire and he dies in the fire also?

i watched this once around 5 years ago? i believe it was on netflix

praying someone can help me...

Thank you all and have a nice weekend!

Keep having an urge to deposit but holding strong

I keep looking at the results but convincing myself I would have backed the loser in whatever game and it's naming it easier

I feel like im already saving money and gaining my time back

One day at a time for now

I'm 36 and have been sports betting since my early 20's. I'm not sure of the exact amount im down (one of my accounts currently says -4000gbp. I probably go through 30 - 50 a week on stupid little stuff but I fall into the trap of not having money for things because it's 'too expensive' but happy to blow it on some soccer games without a second thought.

But it's become less about the money now and the feeling of guilt on my wife who is trying so hard and thinking I have decent money in my personal accounts (I have none). The constant pressure of worrying if team a beat team b or whatever and it basically dictating my mood/day/motivation. The time spent on weekends saying 'I dont want to go out' and just sitting and throwing money away.

I think the final straw was i lost 1k in a day and it's just knocked the wind out of me

I contemplated the obvious sinister thoughts of self harm and things but I can't abandon the people who are here for me and rely on me

But I hate what I would class as the disease I have and have had for many years... I have grown tired if it now. I think I need to self exclude and try and find better things to do with my time

I'm tired so this might not even be coherent but it's the first time of put on paper the roughly 16 years of 'fun' I've had (i see it for what it is now and is more akin to self abuse)

Thank you for reading