u/Fit-Chest-1

3 months in a severe MDD episode. This is my second episode but the first was over 30 years ago. I have very severe symptoms. I can barely function. I have tried Trazodone, Hydroxyzine, Wellbutrin, and buspar. All were overly sedating. Welbutrin made me crazy. Tried it for 4 weeks. After genesight testing, I’m currently on Pristiq. I’m having a horrible transition -super tired, dizzy, no motivation, and sensitive to light. I’m only on day two. Do I just keep trying and failing?

I feel like the drugs are making things worse. I’m so medicated and sedated. I feel awful both ways. How long should I wait this round? I feel like on a constant wheel of medication after medication. I just suffer through non stop side effects. I don’t think I’ve felt better yet. Do I need to try something else?

I took the next two days off of work so I would have time to adjust to Pristiq. I stop buspar two days ago but was only on 5 mg. I was starting to get migraines so had to stop. Day 1 and 2 on Pristiq have been awful. I took at 8 AM both days. Basically slept till 1 PM both days, the nausea and dizzy the rest of the days. Should I switch to night time dose? I messaged my doctor but have not heard back. I won’t be able to go back to work and sleep from 8-1 pm. Is this normal?

For last few weeks of my MDD episode I notice I have nothing to say. This episode started in Feb. I was able to talk a few weeks ago. But now, I’ll go all day without any real thoughts. I just struggle to make it through the day. I work at home with my husband. It’s complete silence all day. I use to be really talkative so this is very uncomfortable for me. Is this related to anhedonia? Is it something that resolves? I’m worried I have nothing to talk about.

Every single post on MDD says you just live with it. I’m about 3 months in and I can barely function. According to my psychiatrist nurse, I can recover. Maybe I’m misunderstood what recovery means? Has anyone actually fully recovered from MDD? I haven’t had a moment of joy for months. I need some hope that recovery is possible.

I have noticed my symptoms have improved better sleep at night, no night sweets, longer windows without napping, and libido is somewhat back. My therapist said I’m in the second recovery phase.

Please let me know if you have recovered.