u/Fit-Shift-6105

In June of last year, I had five cats (most of them rescues that I found on the verge of death but loved with my life). In July, three hours before my birthday, we had to put one of them down—worst time of my life. In late January, one of them unknowingly got out and there was a wild cat. He literally took his last breath in my brothers arms when he was running inside screaming at me to call the vet. I never thought I'd have to see my baby cat like that and bury two in the span of six months.

Yesterday, the cat I've had for seven years now got diagnosed with a renal lymphoma. No symptoms before yesterday. The vets don't want to remove his kidney because he might not survive surgery. One of my other cats got diagnosed with CKD a few months ago which is managed right now but I know he has a few years at max. The fifth cat is eleven years old, is partially blind and immunocompromised because of feline herpes virus.

I don't know what's suddenly happening to all my babies, and I honestly don't know how to deal with this continued loss. How do I go about my life with all of this? It's like I've just barely got done grieving for one of them and something else happens.

Okay psa: I'm not officially diagnosed with ARFID but i probably have it because nothing else fits it better

Okay so I used to have these loaded fries up till a few months ago, and it was the ONLY thing in which I could tolerate meat. My arfid makes it so that all kinds of meat make me throw up (it was me cutting it out gradually as I grew up. All kinds of meat except chicken when I was eight. Chicken on the bone by the time I was twelve. All chicken except processed by the time I was fifteen. All chicken except fast food mix-ins when I was sixteen—so not meat focused foods but food that had chicken as a part of their meal, I'd be fine with. Was fine with that until I was eighteen and by then, I could only have chicken in one form—loaded fries from this one place. Used to eat them so much during exams, used to get them 2-3 times a week and all. But a few months ago, I started getting disgusted by them and the meat in them too. Ate them and thought about throwing up all day).

Apart from that, I despise most dairy too and I can only have my eggs boiled and as part of bigger meals instead of by themselves.

This is why I currently only have four savory meals on rotation for these past few months now (chickpea salad, wraps (with chickpeas vegetables, boiled eggs etc), boiled egg sandwich (bran bread only, tomato, eggs, condiments, corn chips inside), and air fryer frozen fries.)

I'm mostly fine with these since these are a few of my only safe foods but oh my god. I've been craving those loaded fries all day. I know if I try eating them, I will want to throw up. But there's nothing I want more right now. I don't know how to deal with this 💔🥀 locking back in to the boiled egg sandwich factory for dinner 💔🥀🥀

The only thing low-key holding me back from applying to NUST is ke I've heard the army mahol is very strict. I did my a levels in Lahore and have very chill friends etc. but I've heard that NUST is very strict on everything (i.e. guys and girls sitting together). Like military dictatorship mein nahi ana chahti Islamabad. I've already seen the shitty things about girls hostels like the attendance system and the earlier curfew, but mahol during the day, hanging out with friends, whether they also police that etc is what I'm worried about (like we're all adults, it sounds so stupid)

I'm an A levels student taking NET 4 (first attempt). I took bio, chem, physics, psych as my subjects but I'm applying into pre eng programs. I'm aware that I need to lock in for math but I've seen people talking about how we should prepare for the physics portion with the fbise book? I think the topics are more or less the same between a levels and fsc, but I wouldn't know for sure. Can someone low-key help me out here because I'm perhaps a bit stupid