u/Fit_Entrance1326

I have gotten to a point where I am just disillusioned about the entire concept of full time employment.

I am neurodivergent, majority of work places are not suitable for my needs. Even if colleagues are nice and the job isn't bad, I don't want to work anymore. I am tired of the pretence, of pointless small talk chatter, audio stimuli, noise and radio that keeps on playing the same 10 songs on repeat 8 hours a day every day. I don't want to keep working on projects I don't care about (losing motivation). And I don't want to keep spending most of my time with people I have nothing in common with.

Every single job that I worked at had some sort of issues. I am glad I am not getting bullied anymore, but this still just isn't good enough. I will keep on trying to escape wage slavery.

If you have to deal with difficult customers/colleagues/bosses every day for 8-9 hours,you have no energy or nerves left to deal with other people. Your tolerance and patience for other people is at 0.

So when leaving work your are agitated, agressive, unfriendly, rude. When you get home your family gets the angry, exhausted version of you, not the spritely, loving person you could be.

The constant pressure changes us for the worse. However hard work used to be 100 or 1000 years ago, it was slow. Peasants worked from dusk to dawn. But they worked at their own pace. Did not have to work with other people or not many of them and had extended siestas during the work day.

Nowadays we are overcrowded at the way to work, at work and from work. And overcrowded animals are stressed, aggressive and will attack/fight with others, just to get some breathing space. We truly are just rats in the rat race.

I love working on my house. Every chore I do means I get to enjoy the fruit of my own labor. Mowing my lawn means I have a nice yard to hang out in, weeding my garden means I'll get to eat great food, organizing my garage gives me space to do my hobbies, etc. I enjoy doing many chores because finishing them directly improves my life.

I loathe having a job. I hate that 40 hours out of my week are not mine. When I finish work tasks, I don't feel happiness or even relief like I do with chores. It's just onto the next thing because it's never ending. The pay is only ok and my yearly raise is just a cost of living adjustment no matter how well I do. I fantasize about retirement every single day and I'm 31.

My job isn't even that bad. I complete my tasks on time and I do them well. I like the people that I work with and the work isn't overly demanding (I've been there before), I just don't really care about any of it and my coworkers care so much. I try to care by speaking up during meetings when I wouldn't usually and volunteering for more work, but at the end of the day, I'm only doing it for the paycheck, which is so draining. I think about switching jobs, but I can't think of anything I want to do for this much time every week so I just stay.

I'm so sick of it all. I'm sick of hearing about how our VP's rent is more than my salary, record profits, high up people who never seem to do anything getting promotions, and then after all that getting told no when I ask for better raises. I hate seeing those articles about actors or musicians getting back into their craft after taking a long break and how good it was for them. Stuff like that is completely inaccessible to the working class. All of it makes me so bitter.

I feel like I'm living in the twilight zone. How is everyone cool with the 40 hour work week and 2 weeks vacation and it seems like I'm the only person I know who isn't? I wish the people who love work could subsidize people like me who hate it so I could pursue the things I actually want to do and contribute to society in ways that are meaningful to me. I don't hate work because I want to do nothing, I just want freedom, fulfillment, and relaxation.

I don't want to be this bitter. Mostly, I wish I was just as brainwashed as everyone else. I think I would be happier.