Crying myself to sleep again lmao i can’t even watch anything anymore or go to the cinema in peace
And just in case:
p.s. sorry for bad english
Also i would really appreciate if someone could give me an honest rating 🙏
I've been told that I look a lot like Jennifer Love Hewitt. Even though I don't really see any similarities, I was thinking of shaping my eyebrows more like hers because I'm getting them done soon.. should i?
I’m so tired of not being able to tell if i am really that ugly or maybe mid… I will attach pictures taken by me and by sb else. My friend says i have a really long face. what do you think?
hello reddit this is my so called epiphany
Okay i hate diaries and notes so im writing my incoherent thoughts down for you to guess whether im drunk or english isn’t my first language.
I am full of this bullshit. Stop it. I had Napoleon’s plans for this summer because it’s my last summer before high school graduation next year. It’s mid-July and im in my suffering mood again. I celebrated my birthday yesterday and despite my best efforts i couldn’t stop thinking about my stupid annoying compulsively revulsive face. I couldn’t even focus on watching a film in the cinema with my friend because why is my stupid annoying compulsively repulsive mind analysing shit about people on screen i hate it myself and the world nahhhhh bro. Barely stopped myself from going to the bathroom like 20 times because i NEEDED that mirror bad. But carrying a pocket mirror in my bag is too much though. Okay that part is anxiety’s fault. Im feeling positively full of shit rn.
Another canon event is going to the bathroom with sb and making disgusted expressions while standing in front of a mirror just in case. We both know im ugly so we chill, huh?
So as you can see my Napoleon’s plans for the summer arent working out and i only described one day.
It’s also so weird because tell me why i went to the bathroom got sad and disgusted looking in the mirror and 15 minutes later im back in front of that hanging mirror thinking i could be the next Marilyn Monroe. If this continues i wouldn’t mind being the hanging one.
I also cant sleep because of this.
Also when i was 9 i made an illustrated 30 page book called The Most Beautiful Dog.
Four people and a guy who looked like Gilbert Blythe stared at me from 2 metres away when i was sitting on a rock being mysterious on my week-long vacation in the mountains and i thought it was because i am, naturally, so hideous that they had to come up and have a laugh. My parents later said i was tripping. I feel like im tripping all the time at this point. i spent the rest of the week-long vacation depressed because that’s what i excel at. (Gilbert Blythe guy please come back you haven’t found out how unfunny i am yet..)
So, all of this sums me up as a person. I wish it didn’t though. I wish I was sleeping right now and wasn’t spitting my ass jokes. But who cares because no one is reading this bullshit. Thank universe!
If your guess was “English isn’t her first language” you were absolutely right. The “drunk” option is only half wrong because i technically sound drunk all the time even though i have never tried a sip of alcohol. Maybe just a drop on the tip of my pinkie on New Year’s. Does it really count?
I think it’s time to wrap this up.
Does anyone have any advice on how to live your life without psl scales, rate me apps and subreddits? Because i clearly dont.
P.S. I apologise in case someone endured reading this punctuation-less thought dump.
Well, I don’t have much to add to the title… I expected myself to look at least average but I guess no matter what I do I will stay ugly. I didn’t even bother with my outfit, to me it’s humiliating to wear nice or cute clothes with this face.
p.s. English isn’t my first language so sorry if i sound weird. I just thought that sharing might help it all a little 🥲
So, I have one year (yes, I know that’s plenty of time, but I’m mid on my best day and chopped on the daily) to find a guy to dance with at my school graduation. The problem is that have zero guy friends, no brothers, no cousins I could ask, no friends with brothers who could be bribed into helping, which makes me a total hopeless loser at the moment. To make things even more fun, my class is only girls. Which is amazing… until you realize it makes finding a dance partner slightly more complicated. So yeah, I’m shy, awkward and probably socially constipated, but I would be eternally grateful if anyone has advice. It would be life-saving. Thanks in advance, and thanks for reading my ramble.
P.S. English isn’t my first language.
I‘m shy and neither can identify myself as attractive. I have a couple of friends: one of them is just like me, the other has a lot of connections and initially tried to make me join their friend group… I can’t say that i didn’t give it a try; still, i kind of ran away because im a coward. This summer is my last summer before going to university and i’m turning sixteen as well, so i thought it should be special… does anyone have any piece advice or has ever found themselves in a similar position? I would be eternally relentlessly very very very much gratefu!!
p.s. sorry if i sound weird, English isn’t my first language :(