Life after abuse
Rants of a single mom, 4 months post separation.
And part of me thinks…this is that feeling of endurance and resilience that you can feel in single mothers. Everyone else can clock out but if I do it everything falls apart. Whether you are having a hard day or a hard life, your children still need you and sometimes it is just you. I try not to resent anyone for it because regardless this is my child and I love my child. Romantic relationships end, as do friendships and family depends on circumstance and while they just not be able to help it doesn’t change the fact that my support system hangs by a thread. My sister doesn’t help as much hands on with the baby but she still does the other things. So I’m back to 25/8 parenting, working, exhausted and lonely but never able to be alone. Lately I’ve been contemplating just giving in and calling my husband. But ik it’s not to do that. Many have unsolicited advice or suggestions but few offer action or support. It’s not the losing him that hurts so much as realizing I don’t have much of anyone nowadays.