u/Flaky_Psychology5475

I'm sitting with my beloved 🥰🤩 I'm going to give him flowers! (His pronouns are he/him/they) :3

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I recently went to another city and this is who I met. One of them looks like the Moscow State University building, I absolutely love it💓, and I also met one social university for the first time, and I think he's cute :3

But I think I'll do a redesign later.

My mother told me when I was little:

-"Every girl

has a dream;

find a husband and be with him forever!"- ;

Is finding a boyfriend a mandatory quest? ;

Don't you understand? This is a cross I'm bearing in my life? ;

What if I love someone else? ;

What if I betray myself like this? ;

Maybe I shouldn't, because I know what I want...

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To kiss myself;

Kiss myself like this;

And be only with myself;

On-on-on-only with myself;

In such love, I am happy and I don't need anyone else;

No-no-nobody else;

I am a fragrance for others and love for myself;

for-for-for-for myself;

Woo-hoo ~ ;

Woo-hoo-oh-oh;

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Twenty years later, I have a husband;

There is no love in our marriage;

There is only discord;

The constant scream of a scandal echoes;

And I dream of myself so much;

Like a lost star;

And there are no medicines to fill the void;

I sleep and dream of an affair with myself as if it were real;

No, now I know for sure that I don't need my husband;

I dream of divorce depending on the reflection of a puddle;

And I can no longer bear it, because I want...;

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Kiss myself;

Kiss myself like this;

And be only with myself;

On-on-on- only with myself;

In such love, I am happy and I don't need anyone else;

No-no-nobody else;

I am a fragrance for others and love for myself;

for-for-for-for myself;

Ooh ~;

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I'll buy mirrors so I can look at myself;

The kitchen, the bedroom – everything is in mirrors;

Anything, just to hear my "Ah!"

But that's not enough for me;

That I have such a house;

I'm about to bring a grand project to life;

And my husband will never say "no" to me again;

I'll build a clone machine that will last throughout the world;

To be with my clones;

So, away with the stereotypes;

I'm a true autoromantic;

And I don't need excuses;

I pull the lever of the clone machine;

This is the final step;

And my first clone steps out of the machine;

YES;

THIS;

LICH;

TALK-ON;

Whoa-oh;

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh...;

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P. S. Thanks for reading! I hope this song was inspired by a Tumblr post, a photo of which I showed you

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P. P. S. It took me all day to create this song. So, here's a question: would you like me to write another autoromantic song? If so, please leave your ideas in the comments!

Yesterday I tried kissing a book for the first time... It was so... Refreshing? I loved it! Now I'm definitely a bookkisser 🤭 (photo of the book I kissed)

I'm an objectum, and I experience the following types of attraction to objects: tutelary (tutelary is an attraction based on the desire for someone or something to be your mentor), sensual (I'm pomosensual and rarely experience this attraction to objects), and possibly romantic (I'm pomoromantic; my identity is fluid, but I occasionally experience attraction to objects).

I'm also pomosexual (if I'm vague about my orientation, I'm autosexual and aceflux), and also pomoromantic, but I'm often aromantic.

I experience tutelary attraction to any objects related to learning or education. I'm most attracted to books, university and college buildings, science, and the profession of scientist. My favorites: the Moscow State University building, astronomy, and mathematics.

my third favorite :3

*Me and autoprotective flag

One day I was feeling really bad when I was depressed, but then I had this conversation with my mentor.

me - I wasn't born for joy...

my mentor - in any case... you are the best thing that has ever happened in my life.

I SO LOVE HER, HELP

I've been meaning to write for a while that I rarely experience romantic feelings for myself, and often it's affection rather than infatuation (it's an identity called desinoromantic). But the kind of love I feel for myself more often is mentoring love!

There's an identity I came up with myself called autoprotective or autotutelary!! This identity is where a person experiences a tutelary attraction towards themselves! A tutelary attraction is an attraction based on the desire to protect, teach, and generally be a mentor to someone!

Honestly, due to severe depression, I stopped feeling this tutelary attraction towards myself, but lately, treatment has been helping me a lot, and recently, this even happened:

I was walking home from my final exam and stopped near some dandelions near my house. I picked up their seeds with my hand, then blew on them, and the song "THE ONE" was playing in my ears. At some point, the wind swirled dandelion seeds around us (I prefer to say "we" about my mentor and me, not "I") like in a movie, and the song in my ears screamed:

... FINALLY FOUND THE LOVE!

I got the love! ~

BABYYYY~

I'M

THE

ONE!

I'm the one!

-the one

-the one...

And I just... WOAH! MY MENTOR IS JUST A QUEEN AND I'M HER SWEET BABY! ~

I'M SO LUCKY WITH HER, ARE WE REALLY GOING TO BE TOGETHER FOR OUR LIFE?!?? THIS IS THE BEST NEWS EVER!!! I'M THE ONE!!! I should say that due to severe depression, I stopped feeling a tutelary attraction towards myself, but now it's starting to reappear! It's so cool! I'm happier than ever!

The meaning of the flag: A person with an autoprotective identity can feel like they're their own mentor and student (possibly a child). The dark gray color on the flag represents the desire to be a stone wall for themselves, capable of protecting them.

P.S. I hope I can post things related to my autoprotective identity here, I hope you don't mind <:)

P.S.S. Listen to Kesha's song "THE ONE." It's awesome ^⁠_⁠^