u/Flowerpower-20

Years ago when I got ill and where I lived back then I had the strange experiences of a negative energy portaying himself as this guy, who would take my energy (the little I had left).

I got worse and worse, and the thing, what it now was, stronger and stronger.

I experienced it as if what ever negative feeling, thought I had this being would make it ten times worse.

As this had proceided in steps I went backwards with me saying I don't want this.

Hear hallucinations or not. I remember hearing footsteps and they stoped as he stood by my bedside table, looking down at me. Nights when I woke up feeling, almost seeing (but being droisy) this dark being standing there, stealing my energy (but by night the whole bedroom was dark).

Eventually he went away.

I womder if he is gone for good. Or is it that these sort of beings once they have made a connection they can return if you get ill, weakened?

This is all rather silly and I get it if I get no replies, but I have had 1 in my past (dated) and one in my life who I think is open spiritually. Both of them has spontanously commented that I was always popular, as in school. This make me laugh as I remember the time, place I made the better call bot to be part of some girls team for the popular, did not like how they were.

Just as of yesterday the one I'm close to again stated I had always been popular, when we went back in time and this person looked puzzled. Could it had been one of those important choices you do in life, and then you create this parallel universe where one decision lives on? I liked onw of the popular ones, a girl, but I still refused, came to that decision.

The guy I dated I began to date long after those years in school was done with.

I have looked for advice for an alternative cutting cords with an ex and received great advice on here, so grateful for that. There is one obsticle though, one I don't know if it's a real one or imaginary, mental/all me. I have not as of today done it because this problem to come to a final decision, conclusion myself, why I'm asking of your opinion. You are free to think this is crazy, worst B-movie.

The history of all this is I remember a past life with the ex. In it I was at first friends with him and another girl. The girl and he were a match, but due to circumstances they weren't married. She had two men adoring her, one she belonged to in public, but the other one (my husband to be, the ex) was in the shadows. I could tell she could and would use manipulation to get her way. I think there was a plan to put us all together. But with this plan of hers, she was never ready to loose her power over him (my husband, the ex) in the way she started to. Her ego got bruised and I think she got a little scared. He and I got close in a way she had not anticipated and simultanously she was loosing a part of him. What I remember from it is that I felt sorry for him (because to no will of his own he was put in a hopeless situation with his love for her.).

Now on to this life. I did not know who she was then, but I had dreams of her during my relationship with the ex, one time I got so out of it that when he was gone I began to search for evidence that he was cheating in the home by trying to find a piece of her hair, or something, in our bed. I stoped what I was doing and would think to myself I was crazy and had had only a bad dream. I was so frustraded with myself. I was too ashamed to tell him this. I was never jealous during our relationship, I trusted him. I didn't know what the dreams of her meant.

Our relationship did not end on good terms, first there was the angry silence from him that I thought would dissapear over time and we would move on, hopefully one day finding other people who were right for us. But when the angry silence was gone he began a courtchip of wanting me back that I too thought would go away after some time when he would come to terms that it was no use.

As life moved on so did our seperate love lives and we both found others. I recognized her from my dreams as one and the same. There was something about her revealing her being into magic, but this did not scare me. It sounds crazy, but for a long time every once in a while I felt as if I could feel his energy (one time physically as he was moving in closer after our split. I was right about that that one time). When he got involved with her I felt as him (imaginary or not) becoming lighter. It was not until someone told me that there had been done black magic on me, but was removed by the one telling me (for free) that I began to wonder who would do this and why. If it was her it was not as if we had ever been in a triangle situation, cheating situation, or too close in time of a situation. The only thing I could think of is that he felt always honest with me.and would talk to me too about his previous love life. If he had mentioned me I thought worse case scenario it had caused her to get jealous and do black magic. I think I know him well enough to say I never thought of him as the cheating kind. Another option is if I felt attached to him in some strange spiritual way, if this was real, so could he? The thought had not hit me before. But what if he had felt me too? And told her? I don't know their background story, how they met.

Now to the most tricky part I find it so difficult to explain. I would have strange experiences both when I was awake and in dreams. I have questioned if I by this time was psychotic and this is why it was real to me (the stuff that happened when I was awake). It was stuff I have as of later, not easy to find, could think had some element to it being of magic. I remember when I would have nightmares that I blamed him for he would always show up, but never mad or hurting me or flirting, but always helping me. I did not like these sort of dreams. I didn't understand them or where he came from. I know now all these things began to take place some vital part into his relationship with her, not straight away. I may have this all wrong, but could it be he taught himself to use his abilities to help me? Not actual dreams?

Here is my thoughts on it. This is something that I have later found our child write down in our past life, it was that if one of us got hurt the others reaction would be to get hurt too. The child was aware of the connection between the parents and describe it in such a way that with modern terms can be translated to us having this cord between us.

If she did black magic on me, it got removed, don't mean she can not do it again? If my and his cord is removed he can't feel me no more and won't then be able to protect me (as a way to protect himself, if I hurt, he hurts).

Should I or should I not?

When I don't think of him it feels weaker and the same with the past life.

It isn't only about me, this crazy story, it got to involve my daughter too (who I think I experienced as unborn spirit, our once daughter). I never told her anything about the ex, the past life. Nothing. She could not have heard it from somewhere. Only she began to too have nightmares and it could revolve fears she had. He showed up, time and time again, and helped her. She would say she "called" him and he would be there real quick. She would describe him as how he appeared in the past life, but other times I don't know if it was him she experienced or him now. Would she be under any type of threat if the cords are cut? She was important to him in the past life, they had their own bond, connection.

When I was pregnant someone described seeing, hearing a guardian angel to me, my unborn baby in such a way that got me surprised. Long after I discovered where my past life grew up the history of the area would likely have gyardian angels look like that. In that life I too ezpected my daughter, same roles. Please, share, if you like what yours look like or been told they look like?

Anyone else had this, how can it be? I remember a past life and if that's not enough it felt as it was going on simultanously as my own. I have had, still have tingeling symptomes of an illness my past life identity had. I have also when I thought of her past life husband felt symptomes as if they were my own that I later, not before, found out he actually had! They got stronger as I've become more involved.

I have found out more about where she and her husband came from, I wonder if the area with it's history and my past life's immidiate circle made both her and her husband more open, spititually, if this can explain it? The history of the place was the cruel witch hunts trials, place of spiritual, religious people. The husband was an outsider coming into the place, but this is where she grew up. Her family and her were deeply religious. From the looks of it her parents were very sensitive looking (it looks as if my grandfather was my dad back then). I would say the area was before their time as far as attitude went on dealing with mental illness. In her early adult years what always came through to me is that when I'm her I'm depressed. Her husband would ask around and write letters to her asking about her, expressing a worry of both her physical and mental state before when they were just friends throughout their lives as husband and wife. From my own memories he was functioning like a normal person to then get crazy, the crazy would dissipate.I would say he was manodepressive, and my ex who I think was him I think was manodepressive too. He would in such episodes swirl into all intense manners, his life crashing down on him, around him, to him then trying to rebuilt it. He was trying to dust it off when he came into my past life circle, into the area. It was not the classic you're my true soulmate vibe, my other half, type of feelings, but it feels as if the love was pure. I have difficulty explaining it to outsiders as they think it must have been a torrid love affair. It isn't like that.

How come I can feel not only hers, but his symptomes too? Do you know what it can be? It's always the strongest in the morning when I wake up. Don't know if that matters.

I have records from their family and her husbands dr exposing their physical and mental issues. They resonate with my memories and experiences. I have been hesitent to go through it all and I guess I was right because now these symptomes are here, lol.

My co-parent is a likable guy and I would always hear it from others interacting with him, without my presence, that he was. But all through our relationship he isn't this nice guy to other guys if I'm around interacting with them (for example I order a pizza and the guy bring it to our table). I'm hoping they can't tell because they don't know him like I and others do. But I can tell they can.

It's not such a big deal compared to problems you can face thtough life, I know, but I still wonder if I would be right or not to tell him what I've picked up on and ask him to change his attitude? Had I not been there he would I believe be his usual likeable guy.

A couple of times I've visited places.homes,historical building and something has set it off, I don't know what, but stuff that would be read as paranormal, poltergeist activity or simply unexplainable.

One thing I can't put together is that for a long time I had this dream, that I was standing on this hill looking in front of me of a historical building. I was dressed actually how I would later in life when I found out who my past life was dressed. First time I got this was when my ex brought up to talk about our upcoming wedding. I could not understand why and never shared it with him. It was in no way a typical wedding dress. I think I have found enough evidence that we were married in a past life.

One day, without having planned it at all, me and few others decided to visit this historical place I knew nothing about.. I ended up standing at the spot I remember I, or the old me in that dress, having stood. It felt like deja vu. What we found strange is that once inside the building nothing worked no more, the cellphones. I felt as if something, energy, was at the bottom of the building. Closer I got I realized they had shut it down. We weren't allowed to go there.

As of lately as I did research on the past life I discover no connection, my past life self never married there. Was never there. The husband never there.

I still don't understand the connection, if there is one?

Hey all!

I wonder if anyone else on here been through relationship/s dynamic with a messed up attachment style? What lesson could be learned from it from a spiritual perspective?

Yesterday I suddenly had this revelation about why I never felt at home with my co-parent and co-parents family. Always felt like a missing piece, almost as if I shouldn't be there at all, if that make sense? I saw a strong pattern from a past life too coming to life.

I have been blessed with a secure attachment style (the shit that happened in my life happened after those important early years). But, and here's a big but, my ex had not, my co-parent had not. Anxious-avoidant instead. Both of them.

The way I got it is that people with a damaged attachment style has the right chemistry for each other. I was not suppose to have been a match for them or them me. I would guess it would take enermous amount of energy, determination for my ex and the co-parent to change it through the help of therapy. Adding I believe my ex was manodepressive as well (not only now, but the same in a past life, inherit it from a parent), not diagnosed, no treatment.

This is what I have seen happening in the co-parents family too where the older generation had damaged attachment styles, thinking this is right, normal, giving the next generation it as a gift.

I have unfortunately no doubt that as much as I know the co-parent love being a parent that if it hadn't been for my secure attachment our next generation would get the messed up style as well, and on it would go til someone put an end to it. Makes me wonder how far back this has gone on for.

Me having been effected by not only the difficulties within the relation with the co-parent, but being surrounded by people, through generations, within his family, with the same as his, made me now with my yesterday's sudden insight why I always felt out of place. It is not that I dislike the family, but I know I'm not like them, I'm not like the co-parent. Everything got highlighted. I've felt like a watcher, a ghost.

I feel more light because I know this was out of my hands, not my fault. In another I feel sadness because I sacrifized myself in a way I wish I hadn't far away from home, when I all that time could have been with a secured partner or better off alone. A part of me wants to kick myself for being too patient, too kind, trying to make my attachment style become theirs.

It always been the same that after I had fought to keep the relationship steady and ongoing my ex and co-parent were not on the same mission, I gave up, them shocked following a flood of wanting me back, then cycle repeat had I done that. To me it's been too much emotional abuse.

My co-parent made this comment to me once that had I only been more like him and his family we wouldn't have a problem. I was from his point of view the problem.

I remember a past life shared with my now ex, back then my husband (widower of me, strange sentence). Much happened in that life. Too much.

When I was a kid and older when I was relaxed, talking on the phone, I would draw him without knowing I did with that special looking hat on I saw and at times the surreal thing he smoked.

I would when having fever or feeling feeverish have what I thought was nightmares of him but he never did anything bad, he was just there. I can not recall this happening until after me and my ex parted ways.

My daughter would without being told or overhearing anything too get dream visits from him. He never did anything bad. My daughter experienced nightmares. She said everytime he came to help her. She would say "I call him" and he's right there or he would be there before if she felt as if something was up. He would stay there. She would turn to sleep, good dreams, said she never knew when he would leave, but he would be gone by the time she woke up in the mornings. If she had a fear of something he would lead her through it. I got frantic when hearing her describing the same looking guy and I thought this was bad. I did not know who or what this was. I was surprised when hearing he would help her get rid of fears. One night I felt in the dream his presence. I felt the feverish feeling and I felt as if he was in her room. I was getting up, I felt confused, heavy, clumpsy as if I was changing realities, determined to get to her and through the same as if I knew he could hear and see me and me him. For a brief moment I saw him and furnitures with him, as if he could create, move that on will. Everything oldish looking. I saw it as a layer on top or under our reality. I felt really confused. My message was leave her alone, you have no place here. I might even have said I'll kill you! Mother instinct on high drive.Only as I came out of it I was still in my bed, hadn't gone up at all. I wanted to think this nightmare only belonged to me. My daughter, still so young, told me to stop fighting with him. She was surprised I did. She had recalled that she had been in a pleasant dream but then I had come out of nowhere. He had then changed the dream on her as suddenly she was someplace like a carnival enjoying herself, going on simultanously as I was fighting with him?

Back in the day when I was with my ex I could in dreams feel her spirit, talk to her, if not her it sure has felt like it and the experiences was she was going ahead to be born to us. My ex had made clear before he wanted a family life with me and would not get upset if it happened sooner than later. It was more me, wanting to wait. My ex is not the biological father of her.

As dreams, past life regression began he showed up as both my ex and the guy with the hat. I was still like No, this isn't happening. I did not want a past life with my ex in it.

Long story short after everything I remembered I found out who we had been and our daughter been. The family that lived on has held on to much material from their days. The husband would care for his wife who would get fever. She did not die in a hospital, but at home. They say he was heartbroken when she died til he died himself. Their daughter had often helped his mom out as the mom got sick, and continued to help care for her dad til his own death. It was said they overcame their obsticles, they had a loving marriage and family life. He would wear that hat and smoke that strange looking smoke I saw. They were religious.

In letters the wife writes about their connection, dreams of him, and he would express deep longing for her when away. Just like me and my ex they were exact opposites on some key issues and this caused them to compromise living a part of their lives apart.

I can't say for sure, but I believe the last time we had an experience was after I thought I got out of bed. He saw me. I saw him. If I remember it right my daughter one time told me spontanously that she did not need to call him because he had taught her not to be afraid. In one of my nightmares he was trying to calm me down but I got more afraid as I didn't wake up or he would not leave. It has been his presence feeling so real I don't want that. My daughter said he had told her mummy does not want me to be here, but not to be crossed with me, but he would stay away.

In the life of who I think he was, the husband, they say he was really pushing it to not be afraid of anything, abyone, would provoce authority, get shot. He would never in public tell his wife she was out of line if she was speaking her mind when it was thought in those circles women simply would not do this.

I don't understand what me and my daughter been through. Was it the ex but coming from the past, as past life and irl live out simultanously, or present ex getting to be an expert on visiting us in dreams? Or something else, but what?

I don't like it that few people I have known and know uses manipulation to get what they want from someone, play with people like that. I have told myself the reason I react like this is because I was just like them in a past life, but no more. I have no memory that I was.

My ex had excellent ability to read people, I thought before no interaction was needed between us and would react when instead of not manipulating he did just that.

I have a friend who instead of having an honest conversation is imo afraid of conflict but is passive aggressive instead and while at it, this leads to manipulation. I've tried to make my point that you loose trust if you manipulate and the relationships you have in your life suffers because of it. I get that they say I say what everyone thinks, but I never get in trouble for it. Could be because they can tell I am sincere, mean no harm.

I know I have my faults, but I have been bothered that members of my soulgroup that I was, am suppose to be so close to, use manipulation this way, real experts of it.

I always comes off as sensitive, prone if the situation is right (or should I say wrong) to develop anxiety and depression.

Anyone else had this, how can it be? I remember a past life and if that's not weird enough it sort of felt as it was going on simultanously as my own. I have had, still have tingeling symptomes of an illness my past life identity had. I have also when I thought of her past life husband felt symptomes as if they were my own that I later, not before, found out he actually had!

I have found out more about where she and her husband came from. The history of the place was the cruel witch hunts trials, place of spiritual, religious people. The husband was an outsider coming into the place, but this is where she grew up. Her family and her were deeply religious. From the looks of it her parents were very sensitive looking (it looks as if my grandfather was my dad back then). I would say the area was before their time as far as attitude went on dealing with mental illness. In her early adult years what always came through to me is that when I'm her I'm depressed. Her husband would ask around and write letters to her asking about her, expressing a worry of both her physical and mental state before when they were just friends throughout their lives as husband and wife. From my own memories he was functioning like a normal person compared to his own personality to then get crazy, the crazy would dissipate..I would say he was manodepressive, and my ex who I think was him I think was manodepressive too. He would in such episodes swirl into all intense manners, his life crashing down on him, around him, to him then trying to rebuilt it. He was trying to dust it off when he came into my past life circle, into the area. It was not the classic oh you're my true soulmate, my other half, type of feelings, but it feels as if the love was pure. I have difficulty explaining it to outsiders as they think it must have been a torrid love affair. It isn't like that.

How come I can feel not only hers, but his symptomes too? Do you know what it can be? How to make that stop? It's always the strongest in the morning when I wake up. Don't know if that matters.

I have records from their family and her husbands dr exposing their physical and mental issues. They resonate with my memories and experiences.

Me and my ex did not part on good terms, I tried to make it good, afterall, but he was not on the same page. Later surprisingly wanting me back. I was afraid of my mental health for the first time during, after our relationship was over with. What happened is that I felt as if I could feel him (his anger) and one time I felt he was on the way, as this energy of his, like on the side, backside of my head, getting stronger and stronger. I tried to reason with myself how foolish this all was, but it just got stronger, ending with me leaving the place. When I returned I was told he had actually turned up! Which you couldn't have guessed.

Things calmed down over time. Life moved on, but believe it or not I would at times still feel in advance as if our ways would cross. I know in few cases it could be because I read it in someone's expression, little things. Letting me know this way this person knows my ex (without telling me). Other times it has been as if other people I know or other circumstances go into that direction, I feel it in advance, check it, it's true and cut myself out of it. Believe me, I have thought about it being just life, but it still don't explain everything.

Before I was told to have no contact with him. I did everything I could to live up to that, thinking it was the right thing to do. Afraid of my own sanity, afraid of his. Really thinking it was the best thing for us both.

I know someone female and we have bern told we share a past life. Where he was too. Early on, still is, she is gravitating towards where he is, only she don't know where he is, I have to cut myself out, as I have done before, but this won't stop. Should I instead go with the flow this time and if we meet again we meet?

Am I the only one evoking reactions from others slamming down at me as soon as I share, when asked in the first place ( not forcing it on anybody) some spiritual experience? Or does it happen to you too?

I knew before, had the feeling it was going to happen, but did it anyways, and rest assure, out of nowhere, this evoked the slam from a complete stranger. It makes me think of my grandma, very spiritual, gifted they think, who was slammed down by her husband, him I bet feeling threaten, demanding control, my parent had for all the reasons in the world a restrained relationship with that "parent".

Every once in a while I encounter these people who act this way, when I have no issue with non believers, or what ever religion practice, and spiritual, what ever, as long as you respect boundaries and do people no harm, it's not for me to say, not my call, not my journey.

It's like I know it's going to happen and I can tell where they're at and think "I understand you don't understand, and I forgive you.".

In my past life I was extremely religious on a path that cherished the sole bond between God and human, but I do recall those claiming authority did not like it ( wanted that power, authority themselves, go between them, as in looking up to them, instead of God) and I remember us becoming this threat, being slammed down for it, but not letting it stop us.

Before when I tried meditating it did not take long before I could feel it as if I was being touched by invisible hands, always light touches. Much later I was told by a psychic it was a crowd of spirits around me. I read somewhere that with someone else meditating that the spirits liked the light, trying to touch that. When I was a kid I remember this clear notion that at times when dreaming and coming out of it that I had paniced because I felt as if I was surrounded by spirits. Before I was really awake, as a kid, I tried when sitting up "get real" and as I did I could see this hand, arm in mid air right in front of me appear, but getting weaker to erasing itself. As the years went by I had forgotten all about it and thinking it was vivid dreams kids get. I have experienced it being as if you can imagine an elevator, when I was negative, I got off at the lower, and here we got spirits, energies, that's like that, and when I've been feeling lighter, I get off, higher up, spirits, energies, lighter. I proberbly by accident opened what I learned is my third eye and as hyped trip that was I was afraid of my sanity and not being grounded. I do like the meditation idea, but I'm afraid if it is true, that I attract spirits, or get crazy trying. How to not let this happen?

I have considered if it is only mental, me imaging me being touched as well as hear hallucination, or feeling energies, it could only been that, I tried to rest assure it was merely that, before, that my mind was fooling me til the psychic told me (wasn't the only one) about the spirits. At the time I was in a relationship with a non believer and afraid he would use my efforts to be spiritual against me if we split as we co-parent, as in claiming I was crazy, practising something, getting full custody. I was afraid of him when it came to this, true or not, what he could do if he wanted to. I stoped. For those reasons. I feel more safe now, but I don't want to mess up, meditate the wrong way.

If someone could please tell me how you do it the right way?