Need advice [Nothing triggering]
Hi all, I’ve never talked in this subreddit before but I feel like I really need help from people that have been in my position.
For years at this point I’ve felt completely emotionally numb, can’t think to save my life, and drained to the point of lethargy, it’s hard for me to imagine getting back to how things were before.
I ignored it for years thinking it’d go away, but a few months before I am leaving to go to college in another country, I feel like I need to take things into my own hands so I’ve been trying all sorts of treatments.
I do have EDS so I am aware of dysautonomia potential and have done a little bit of reading on dorsal vagal freeze but I don’t know where to actually start. I am also skeptical of pornography abuse (I’ve never said this out loud in my life I’m literally shaking typing it), I’ve tried to stop but after a few days I always cave, I have gone a few weeks without it with no noticeable difference though.
I have tried Wellbutrin, concerta and Prozac with only mild benefits to fatigue and brain fog and no effect on the numbness. I’m weaning off Prozac and wellburtin but keeping the concerta because I do think it helps my focus slightly. I am also seeing a cardiologist and rheumatologist to hopefully check out my pots potential and have done extensive bloodwork showing nothing out of the ordinary besides iron elevation (Gilbert’s syndrome)
I’m at my wits end and have a month before I leave the continent, I’m scared I won’t be able to live on my own and handle building a new life for myself from scratch in this state idk what to do.
If anyone who knows anything about this could just point me in any direction I would be forever grateful.
Thank you for taking the time to read.