u/Forsaken-Menu635

She's a bully. She's mean. She's nasty and gross. When I was in elementary and middle school she used to beat me, punch me, whip me with extension cords over the smallest things. Things I've never even done but she never believed me

I admit, I was a weird kid. Didn't have any friends and sometimes other kids would get me in trouble, then the teachers would call my mom. And once I got home I was beaten. Leaving deep welts and big dark bruises. Sometimes I would stay home from school because of that

She's bipolar, and i was the first one to tell her that. And when I did she beat me for that too because I was calling her 'crazy'. But then she got properly diagnosed by her doctor as bipolar soon afterwards

Over time as I've gotten older around high-school things have gotten better. I try and have that mother daughter connection i see most people having because I want that so bad. I was so jealous of other students excited to go home after school because for me, I was dreading home.

Ive tried therapy 3 times but I dont like that. Ive tried moving on from my past and letting go, but wow man. No matter how hard I try I can never forget. Every night I cry about this and her.

Im 22 years old, still living at home with her. Rent free and plus shes paying for my tuition, so I'll give her that. But even to to this day, she hasnt laid a hand on me in several years. Most likely due to her old age. But she'll say and do the meanest things that makes me crash and cry. But God forbid if I say something out of pocket to her about her habits, she'll go crazy and ends up in the hospital as she has done so before 3 times. And then the family blames me

Im just hoping that once I finish college and move out that my life will be at peace. Away from here. Away from her.

Ive just started working at Chipotle for over a month now because I want money to buy Christmas gifts and for school stuff for next semester. Working here is DRAINING me. The customers are snobby and there's too many things to keep up at my location. My coworkers are mean, but idrc about them at all. I have a feeling they find me weird since I dont really talk to anyone. I come in and work then leave

I work early shift and prep the food and I hate it. But I dont want to work nights at stay up until 1 am for every shift. I've been doing a good job of masking my emotions up until this week, I'm over it. I even asked to do part time because this simply isn't it for me, and its still draining because they ask me to come in on my days off constantly

Our location has a high turnover rate. New people come in and work 3 days max before never showing up again. And so far I'm the only 'new' person whos stayed for this long. All my coworkers have stayed and worked there for years. To other people whos stayed that long, how do yall do it?? Because I'm genuinely losing my mind

Hopefully next week when I go back I'll be better at hiding my emotions and disassociate while chopping the onions.