I’m focusing on body recomp and have had a lot of success. I heavy weightlift and do Olympic weightlifting and combo it with CrossFit. Can someone explain why my back fat looks worse in progress pictures as I get smaller and build more muscle?
I need to respond to my other post and will get to it… I need a sanity check first on whether I failed at receiving this morning. I’m leaning very very heavily on this community and I appreciate you all. Many of the skills I did receive well as I was getting baited a lot. On my way to dropping off my partner, we came off a bad night when he kept baiting me and was drunk and his hurt was coming out in the form of name calling. I said ouch to him and proceeded to sleep in the second room. This morning I asked myself what my higher self would want. And so I still made him his lunch and in the car thought about not walking on eggshells and trying to read every move he made. He still tried ways to bait me in the car like saying how he doesn’t want to do taco night anymore bc the last of his tacos (that he left out and asked for) were soggy and there’s too many dishes that are made (even though he doesn’t clean them and I do.) I just said I hear you, what would you like instead. And he answered and I said okay. The rest of the care ride I wanted to have calm silence. There’s a lot of SC I need to do today and I really just needed to stay to myself and have peace in the car ride. I’ve been sending him gratefulness texts the last couple of days. On the last leg of the ride, he said, “do you need to send mid day check ins today?” And I said “I don’t need to send the texts, I want to send the texts” and he responded with okay do what you want. When we got to his job, I said have a good day, and he said are you wanting a kiss or no?” And I said “up to you”. I’m kind of kicking myself for not receiving and saying yes and also my entire body wanted to flee. I honestly didn’t want the kiss as well. I’m incredibly hurt by the night before. Did I mess up at the end? Should I still have said yes even though my entire body is screaming no
Win: we had PI last night and were able to connect. I’ve been practicing the skills religiously and I feel a shift in myself which is good. Alongside gratitude each day I also pray and I feel something inside me that’s more renewed.
Challenge: I sent him a text message sharing gratitude for PI and also adding a flirty message to it. He got home, I greeted him warmly, and was happy he was home and after I said did you get my text message and he’s like no. I was like no problem, it was a bit spicy in a playful tone. I was finishing my hair while watching a show we watched together for the first season. After the first season he said he hated it and was upset that we even watched it bc it was bad. I actually liked it so I just watched it as part of my own self-care while doing my hair. He said I’ll read the text message eventually and went to go workout. When he came upstairs, he said it wasn’t that great or creative. I wish I said “ouch” but I didn’t process it until later, I immediately was hurt and just said, “okay.” I was in tears. He asked me simple yes and no questions about a show I was watching and I answered them then he went upstairs to shower. When he came back he gave me a kiss, asked if something was wrong and I said I feel hurt. And he’s like why by what I said about the text message and I said yes. And he said sorry it wasn’t the reaction you were expecting and I said you can have any reaction you want. He was like what is it then, I said I would love to pour more playfulness and joy into this relationship. And he was like okay, how have you done that and I was like I was sharing gratitude and normally things like greeting you and he’s like okay so just normal things. And at that point I was like it’s okay and walked away. He was like doesn’t seem like it’s okay and I said I don’t want to start an argument. And then I came upstairs to throw this to the community. I’m just so frustrated. I’m in the beginning of the skills so working through the pain of changing. It’s so frustrating when I feel pure joy and happiness sending him a text and he’s just like meh and then how I express a desire and he’s just like you’re just doing normal things and you don’t like my reaction. It just feels really dismissive and I want him to also be playful as well with me and not feel like I’m throwing things to a wall…
I feel like I keep losing. This past week I felt absolutely awful from my period and just overtraining because I’m trying to lose weight. My body was incredibly sore and my fatigue was so bad. I informed my partner and tried to do at least 3 self-care things a day. I still sprinkled in like a thinking of you text when he was at work, and was still making dinners. One of the dinners I made was so good but ended up giving him heartburn bc I didn’t realize one of the ingredients in the peppers sauce was tomato paste. He then was upset and told me how his lunches haven’t been great bc they are mainly protein and the dinner tonight was mostly fat and not carbs. So I said I hear you and asked him what he’d like tomorrow and he was like maybe not much protein and more carbs. So the next day i sent him a veggie pasta recipe that was healthy and asked him if he still wanted no protein or I could do something lean like turkey. Then said I could also do a salad with it. He didn’t look at the recipe and just said whatever I want to do and yes to the salad; blueberry blue cheese. So I make the two things. And then the vinaigrette I chose to make made the blue cheese not of potent was his feedback and the pasta dish was lack luster with no protein. So I felt defeated there. And I walked away to go upstairs and just cry and he’s like what’s wrong and I said I feel like a loser. And he was like I’m just telling you how I feel and I said you have every right to feel how you feel. I’m just feeling defeated and like a loser. And then I went to shower and came back down and he was like you’re not a loser and I appreciate you. And I said thanks and we just had a chill night. The next day I knew we had an early date night so I was like okay going to make a protein dish that’s still healthy with some carbs that we’ve had before. And he got home, he said he didn’t like his lunch (which was the pasta from the night before). He then said that his run was bad because of it due to no protein and I first fell for the bait and said there was turkey in there. And he said barely any and then I remembered the bait and I said I hear you and totally. He said I was just being agreeable and asked if I was okay and I said yes, I understand. And then we went on our date and the date that we had was of course not good, we both agreed the production was lackluster. And then he blamed me for that. And then we came home and watched the show we were watching all week. It didn’t have a great ending so he blamed me for also watching a sucky show. And then he rejected me when I was trying to hug him a little later. We went to bed together okay. And then today I felt rejected so I focused on my self-care until he was ready to hang out. He comes to check on me and I tell him I was feeling rejected and then of course he got defensive. And now we are in separate rooms bc he told me if I don’t care about how he feels then he doesn’t need to care about how I feel. And I felt like I was caring about how he feels all week but I guess I wasn’t idk. He also said he doesn’t like being with me or around me. Brought up our first trip from the summer that he says how I ruined bc I interrupted our makeout session to play a sex game. And he’s just incredibly defensive, I feel like I’m practicing the skills and apologizing more, saying I hear you, but all I feel like I can do to keep the peace is say nothing, accept anything he says to me, or just be in another room. Idk. Any advice would be great.
I finished my first 75 Hard last December. It was great, wouldn’t trade it for the world, as it changed my life for the better. I was able to start at a CrossFit gym and been consistent the last 6 months. My weight has been stable but I have been losing fat so great recomp. I’m feeling this call to do 75 Hard again and I was curious if anyone who has done multiple rounds had advice for it. What to watch out for? Did you find it easier the second time? Harder? What was something you wish you knew going into it again?
I’m a bit frustrated bc of the names my H calls me when he gets upset/drunk. This time started bc I’ve been on a long and arduous health journey. I’ve lost 45lbs so far but have stalled out so based on my personal trainer I’ve been increasing my fiber which means increasing my water. We were chilling on Friday. This was after I’ve done CrossFit (my selfcare), cooked dinner (also selfcare), read, and got my Friday greens n ginger from Jamba (also selfcare). So I was only tired. We were both gaming and I knew it was getting late so I got up to get water for my hydroflask and set it in front of me while gaming bc I know I’ll keep drinking it if I do. He comes over to take a sip and then starts walking away with it. Immediately without thinking I say, “are you really going to take the water flask?” And then he goes off calling me many names and selfish. I just say ouch, that hurts and he’s like you’re only hurt bc I’m hurt. And I’m like ouch that’s really hurtful and walk away and he just says yeah get out of here. Later on that night he fell asleep on the couch. He usually likes it when I wake him up to ask him to come to bed bc he doesn’t want to stay on the couch and even if we argue I still love sleeping together. But he rejected coming upstairs with me and I said whatever you think. And then yesterday I spent time away from him in between gaming, napping, and watching movies by myself. This has been a reoccurrence so I moved into the second room and slept there. He started getting softer throughout the day, never acknowledged my pain and then cleaned up the kitchen which I said thank you to. I got us dinner and then went to bed early with snuggles from our dog. Today I met him warmly and then I went on a hike, read, and wrote. He tried to kiss me and I pulled away and he’s like what you’re still upset and I just opened the flood gates. Which I know I shouldn’t have but I’m having such a hard time healing my own hurt. How does anyone else heal their hurt through their self-care? Do you just let it go or how do you bring it up and talk to them
Hello all, I am new to MacroFactor. I Olympic lift 2x a week, do CrossFit 1-2x a week, and have a conditioning day 1-2x a week. Outside of that I work a desk job at home and I get about 7-10k steps a day. I’m used to the myfitnesspal version of logging food and then it taking into account workouts so I feel better on lift days. I’ve chosen to do a slightly aggressive cut but want to make sure I’m not messing up my metabolic progress. I see MacroFactor doesn’t take exercise into account. I’ve read other posts about the glucose, glycogen, adipose breakdown but I’m still a little confused. So when on a cut how do I managed protein strength based needs if I have to keep lower amount of calories? And can someone explain why MF doesn’t take into account exercise? I guess I’m still a bit confused and changing my mindset when it comes to tracking. Open to learning! Feel free to point me to resource too, thank you!