M19, Italy
Hi, I’m a nineteen-year-old boy from Italy. I’m writing here because I think I don’t understand much about gay relationships. I’m curvy/chubby and I can't find someone in the 20–26 age range who appreciates me and my appearance. I’ve been abroad too, and people do exactly the same. I’ve always wanted to have my first sexual experience with a boyfriend, but when I moved abroad I decided to have sex with someone and I had awful experiences, partly because of my physical appearance. I feel horrible and used, and like no one can like me for who I am. On an app where I met people from all over the world, I noticed that only Latin guys appreciate boys like me. I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’ll have to stay alone for my whole life and I’ll never have a relationship. I don’t want old desperate men, I want to feel loved.