I feel like a completed a milestone but feel a little so-so
So hello everyone not sure if many people have seen most of my posts on here on for this community but to get to the point I am 21 never had a relationship or anything so missing out on a lot of things most people probably get in their teenage years as a gay male or maybe even later. Getting to the actual point so I have never had my first kiss until basically yesterday. I am not in a relationship still but it was with a guy around my age so 20 who just wanted to makeout. I messaged him not sure if I would get an answer because of my body (not fit btw) but he answered and I told him I was new to mostly everything and basically went outer to his place and made out. We literarily just went straight for it and it was very good in way I don't know how else to describe it besides being nice for a first time. I see why people do enjoy making out. I didn't want to go further than that shirts did come off but that was really it on my part. we made out surprising for like almost an hour. I don't know, I just wanted to share about it here. It just made feel less pressured to hurry up and find something to do because I never really had person to do something like this with. I mean I get sad or a little depressed when I see my friends with their boyfriends or mention that they are talking to a person who they might be interested in dating and I obviously support them but it's just so hard for me personally. I dont be a dick when they motioned it I always t tell them to literarily go for it and see what happens from there and if they not interested their loss. So yeah I feel fine now and a bit more confident in myself but that's all.
