u/Freelunchmodel

Nauumay na ko sa sb. Minsan okay pa nescafe original 3in1 hahaha

Hello. I am 32F. Just wanted to share na finally, I have decided na magpa psych consult na. And I think this is the bravest thing I did kasi I finally acknowledged that my condition needs professional help.

For three years, I’ve been feeling anxious and paranoid when I lost my mother. Her passing was sudden and unexpected which made me feel like something bad can happen anytime.

Recently, it’s gotten worse. I am experiencing anxiety and depressive episodes with passive suicidal ideation. I haven’t been able to go to work for a month and it’s also starting to affect my relationship with my husband.

All along, I thought my trauma is something that I can handle until it became darker. Grabe. Hindi ko akalain na ganito pala yung pakiramdam non. Sobrang dark na hindi ko na alam kung pano pa magiging okay.

What made me decide to seek professional help? My love for my husband. I see him struggle in finding ways to make me feel better. Before, I used to think “he doesn’t deserve to have a wife like me which made me want to leave this world na.” But that turned into “he doesn’t deserve to have a wife dragging him down that’s why i need to seek help from a professional.”

Sa lahat ng nakakaranas ng kadiliman at narito pa din, mahigpit na yakap sa inyo. Pilitin natin ilaban ang buhay kahit na sukong suko na tayo, dahil may purpose ang buhay mo. 🥹

Setting aside ang libog, kung love mo yung partner mo, matatanggap mo ba yung past nyang yon? Like, would you marry someone who has done it before?

Sikretong dadalhin mo hanggang hukay pero gusto mo ishare sa stranger haha

Even before my husband and I got married, sanay na talaga akong naka undies lang sa kwarto, like walang top lalo pag matutulog. Nung una nagulat asawa ko pero nakasanayan na nya.

Tanong ko lang, nagfefade ba yung attraction ng guy kapag ganon na laging walang damit yung partner nya? Mejo napaisip lang ako kaso kasi dun ako kumportable talaga eh. Baka muka na pala akong titan sa kanya. 😂

Uy seryoso ako. Kasi I’ve always wanted this kind of setup. Parang hanggang sa huli kupal ka kasi nakakatakot ka tignan sa kabaong.