I grew up believing that if I could just become pretty enough, attractive enough, a lot of my problems would be solved. I was working out, putting beautiful makeup, even got plastic surgery at one point. But it always helped for like day or two and then the same insecurity came back.
In 2022 I had to leave my home because of the military situation, and it completely broke me emotionally. Somehow that’s how I ended up in an ashram in India near Coimbatore, just trying to help myself feel okay again. Idk how but that’s where I started feeling different internally like less jealousy, less insecurity, less obsession with my appearance and it feels SO GOOD. I even shaved my head there and genuinely didn’t care anymore, which still feels insane to me considering how much importance I used to place on my appearance.
I think what I’m trying to say is… please don’t build your entire self-worth around being pretty. Appearance can be fun, creative, expressive, feminine, all of that. But it cannot heal emotional pain on its own.
I really wish someone had told me this earlier.