u/Frequent_Document_55

I’ve been on bupropion 300mg for a good year now and didn’t really see how well it went until I had to stop taking it in may because I ran out and doctors failed to send out my prescription fax to the pharmacy twice, and a month later I have to start at a smaller dose again. I feel absolutely atrocious and lethargic as if I’ve never even been on it and it’s crazy to think I was always like this before any medication. Bupropion gave me enough energy to get out of bed and be as normal as I could be.

I’m so glad to start back on it tomorrow though. It made me feel like an actual person and made me feel emotions more “correctly” even though I was a little irritable lol.

It was my birthday on June 11th, and I have this one friend that said she’d come over with some gifts. I didn’t really expect anyone to come over because I don’t particularly like birthdays. She got here with “Chocolate chips” (literally. chips covered in chocolate) a mini Fuggler collectable figure, and a THC vape because I’ve said before that I wanted to try one.

The small hangout is over and I wait until night to use the vape. I take one puff and feel nice, watch some youtube, then I take second puff, and then a third. Not one after another, but a few minutes in between which I think was still a bad idea?

I got so nauseous and shaky by the time the third kicked in, which was around 2:30am. My poor mom (she knows I’m trying the vape) was lingering by me the whole time I was sick and when I went to sleep it off, she said she checked on me about 4 times until 8am.

Now I’ve been awake since 2pm and my mom made me a really late breakfast while simultaneously poking fun at me. Interesting experience, will not try again. I swear the shakiness was so bad it felt like my limbs were wanting to tremble away LMAO.

Ever since I was little I noticed differences in the way I acted vs. the way people around me acted. Now I’m almost 21 and I strongly believe I may be neurodivergent in one way or another due to this affecting my daily life and how I act and realizing how I acted as a kid. knowing what’s going on would really help me.

My most important question is: How do I ask to get diagnosed when they ask what my appointment is for? Like, what do I say? Genuinely, not knowing what to say or what the call might entail while being unprepared for it is so unreasonably stressful to me. I hate not being instructed on what to do or say.