u/Fresh-Ad-9575

It's crazy to me that people will tell you having a child is something you were made for and it's your only purpose in life and then they will talk about it like it's a miracle and something special....If it's natural and something we were biologically made for how is that a miracle? That's the most normal thing that happens every day. When I said I want to have hobbies instead of children someone said I'm an NPC. It's actually quite the opposite. If you only do something that's biological and something all animals do, YOU are the NPC

I know that you can't give me a diagnosis just by reading this, but I want to know if this looks like autism or inattentive ADHD or maybe both. I want to know if I should get tested.

When I was a kid I had hyperlexia and I was really good at languages but below average in maths and science. I was average in all other things. People thought I was very intelligent because I read a lot but I actually wasn't.

I also had a lot of problems with falling asleep. Sometimes I couldn't sleep all night.

I was always stimming and I still do it A LOT. Sometimes my lips get bloody because of biting them, I also do a lot of skin picking and constantly have to move my body in some way.

I also have hypermobility. I can't sit normally, I can move some parts of my body in a weird way that others can't. I also walk weirdly, random people even asked me if my leg hurts. I have a really bad posture.

Maladaptive daydreaming. I get really annoyed when I am trying to daydream and people try talking to me, I just give them short answers and hope they will leave me alone.

I have no problems with sounds, lights or textures, but I get disgusted easily, like sometimes when I have to wash the dishes I gag. When I see a little piece of food on table I try not to look in that direction because it's so disgusting to me. Or when other person is eating and they have a little piece of food on their lips I immediately tell them because it disgusts me.

I can read body language very well but I don't know how to react. I am very awkward, sometimes I say something that makes situation awkward and sometimes I just don't say anything which also makes situation awkward. It was always hard for me to make friends and people always think that I am weird or they don't have interest in talking to me at all.

I have a really monotone voice and always have a feeling like nobody is listening to me and I always look very serious. People are often interrupting me when I talk.

It's really hard for me to concentrate. I know that phone and a lot of scrolling probably made things worse, but I don't think that is the main reason. When I was in middle school it was hard for me to concentrate on studying even though I didn't use phone a lot. I would just sit and daydream and pretend to study. Now when I try to study I just start spinning on chair or I start eating even though I am not even hungry at all. When I finally start studying I get happy because of it and get a wave of energy and start spinning again and then I can't continue with studying.

I procrastinate every single thing. I always had to study a night before test because it was easier for me to study under pressure. There is always dirty dishes in my kitchen. I didn't see my sister in months because I procrastinate sending her a message. Sometimes I procrastinate brushing teeth or even eating.

I see a lot of religious people using objective morality as an argument for God being real, but it doesn't make sense to me.

You don't want to hurt others because of empathy and empathy comes from evolution. It developed in humans because it helped them to survive when they still lived in groups. Some people don't have it and they like to hurt others because they are mentally ill. Also, we are far more conscious than other animals so we actually know what's wrong.

Religious people say that we automatically know that something is wrong because God said it is. So you don't have a desire to kill someone because God decided it's wrong. I think people forget that rape and murder are not the only immoral things you can do. For example, having sex before marriage is also immoral according to religions. I am not saying that nobody is saving himself for marriage, but most of people are not doing it. So why does it not come naturally for us to be virgins until marriage, if it's moral? We have a natural desire for sex because that's how we reproduce. Why would it be natural for us to do immoral things? It is up to us if we will control ourselves, but still why do we have a desire to do that? It's contradictory to the statement that "We automatically don't want to do it because God said it's wrong". In this situation it's the opposite, we biologically want to do something that's immoral.

In my opinion, we naturally think some things are immoral and that comes from evolution. Some things are taught by society, like wearing revealing clothes or having sex before marriage.

Edit: The main point isn't morality being subjective, I think that is really complicated. I wanted to say that it doesn't come from god

I don't judge people because they want to have children, but if that's their ONLY goal that means they have no personality. Your child is not a part of you, not a mini version of you, it's a person that will have his/her own interests and opinions when he/she grows up. Your personality can't be about the other person. You have to have hobbies that make you happy and interests you want to talk about. What are you gonna do when your children become adults and stop being dependant on you? You're gonna tell them to give you grandchildren because you have no other identity?