u/FrontalLobeSorbet — reddlx

Latuda has been a bad time for me all around

I guess I'm looking for reassurance or something.

I'm bipolar 1. After 16 months of severe depression, I started Latuda 20mg. I was already taking Lithium and tapering off Depakote. I have a psych but I was resisting further meds.

I had akathisia, rage, suicidal thoughts. I drove recklessly. I couldn't eat beyond that 350 calories it needs because I'd get so nauseous. But I wasn't depressed! I took it for three weeks to see if it would chill and it didn't. My psych told me to stop cold turkey and use Klonopin when needed for two weeks.

Problem is, I start a new job in five days and I can't be on Klonopin or having withdrawal symptoms. And I've never had them this bad on anything. I can't sleep and I feel like my body needs to jog. I'm twitchy and I feel so GI sick. My body does not like Latuda

I'm gonna call my psych once it's not the middle of the night but I feel so bad. Its scaring me a bit and nobody IRL gets it.

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u/FrontalLobeSorbet — 8 days ago

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got an offer after 6mon unemployed, my mom said to decline

I'm almost 30. I've been unemployed since May. I took the summer off to fuck around then started looking for work at the end of August.

I applied for two jobs. I got an interview for both and within the same week, had two offers to choose from. It was super overwhelming to choose but I ended up going with job A because it is a government-adjacent role and pays more than I've ever made.

I told my mom because I'm proud; my city only has a 4% unemployment rate so getting two offers without even a BA is huge. My mom told me to decline the offers and keep looking. Her reasoning? The job I accepted involves a small amount of driving, and I got into an accident when I was 21 because of my (now diagnosed/medicated) bipolar.

I'm going to take the job anyways of course, but I'm annoyed there was no congrats, good job, nothing. Just picking on what bit of control she can still have. I haven't lived at home in 10 years. I got married when I was 22 and we've been together 12 years now.. I just hate how I'm still so dependent on mom's praise. I've been to therapy and everything over it, but nothing helps. I still just feel so unloved, even though I'm an adult now.

My food was capocollo, olives, carrots, and cheese. I don't like food that requires a fork very much.

u/FrontalLobeSorbet — 16 days ago

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i feel like i'm watching a car crash in slow mo and i don't even care

this is a new account so nobody can find me, just to make it totally clear i'm not a robot or a figment of my your imagination

i got let go from my job and i basically put my whole life into being a Good Employee ^(tm) . that made me hella depressed and lethargic and i don't do anything which makes me more depressed. so i go drink and party with strangers every evening to boost my mood because i immediately started drinking again when i gained 40hrs in my week

i told my psych and he told me it'll blow over, maybe because i'm not like, binge drinking? he was more concerned about me being med compliant, which i am. i don't think I want to die and i told him that, but i also don't particularly care about the consequences of my actions anymore, broader speaking. i'm openly flirting when i wasn't ever that way. i spent so much money on clothes this week to reinvent myself. i drove my car after taking an edible. i'm binging and purging waaay worse than i was dealing w/ before. i'm like two bad choices away from sleeping with my husband's coworker. but this'll blow over, my husband and my psych say so. i think i just need someone to tell me to grow up or something because i'm a bad person. everyone's life would be easier if i wasn't pulling this shit but i cannot stop

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u/FrontalLobeSorbet — 5 months ago