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Each day I search, every letter I open, every sentence I read, it simply cuts the wound deeper. The wound telling me I'm probably never seeing you again, the wound I refuse to let heal because I hold out for one more day.

I know I should move on, I should look for a more free tomorrow, but it's so hard when your heart lives in the past. I so desperately hope one day I find your letter, but I think it's time to let the past rest. What we had was wonderful, magical, but we agreed to let it go for a better life. I wish I stayed true to that promise, but instead of moving on, I've tortured myself daily with what ifs. Today feels different though, like I finally have a chance to let the wound heal. I can't deny that I love you, but at the same time, you aren't mine to love.

Wherever you are, I hope you're happy, you deserve it. It's a long road ahead for me, but I think I can look for that happiness too.

That night still plays in my mind. The night we said goodbye, waiting as the clock ticked closer to the end of it all. We were across the globe, but I felt you right there beside me, reliving our best experiences, just.... talking.

That night, I don't know what it was, but I felt it, more than friends, on the verge of lovers but not quite there. I wish I hadn't been a coward that night, that I had simply asked for something more, but I chose life over a potential love. While my brain screams at me to move on, my heart chooses to remain in the past. I want to forget, I need to forget, but I simply can't. A fragment of my soul was lost that night and every day since I wish I could see you one more time to feel complete again.

I told you so much before our connection severed, but I didn't tel you all. I didn't tell you what you wanted to hear, but at least I know I lit up those ears. If only I had given all my secrets away, maybe we'd still be making magic moments together.

Whenever life was rough, whenever I needed a friend to talk to or a person to just keep me company when no-one else was around, I knew I could always count on you to be there. Every night I logged on, hoping to see your picture light up and when I did, my day would instantly get better. We lived in a beautiful fantasy, where despite so many others around, you and I only ever saw each other. I may not know your true voice or face, but your heart was as open as ever each time we talked. During our final meeting, as the clock was ticking down our separation, I'm so glad you told me your feelings, how I felt the same in kind. I wish I could have reached out one last time to keep some form of connection, because even now, whenever life gets me down, I just play our song and remember the good times, the simpler times. I want to move on, I want to be happy without relying on this constantly, but no matter what I do, my head and my heart can't let this single fragment of you go. I hope that whenever you hear our song playing throughout the streets, a small picture of me glows brightly in your mind and makes your day just a little better. Just two magical souls, forever entwined, but forever apart.

We said goodbye quite a while ago, but ever since that day, the day I decided my life would be better without you, without the issues of that world we inhabited... I can't seem to stop thinking about you. Day after day, your memory haunts me, serenades me, reassures me. My life may have moved on since that day, but I can never seem to let go of you, no matter how fast or how far I run, you're always there right behind me. I want to know if my memory is in your mind just like yours is in mine. I yearn for the day we find each other again, no matter how impossible the odds are, yet I dread if that day ever comes. We parted on such good terms, but I wish I could have asked for just a little bit more that day, maybe I wouldn't be writing this if that was the case.

Anyway, forgive my tired ramblings, I just had your face in my mind tonight. Just know even if I move on, you'll never leave my mind.

Signed- Your Magic Man